im so slacker today. i cnt stand myself. reached home at 5 plus 6, then juz decided to slack. at first only wanted to 'rest' for a while, but then spontaneously decided tht i wna watch heroes, so i did, and i ended up watching for the entire evening. so nw im currently at the 4th disc, which leaves me wif the final 4 or 5 eps of season 1. ok maybe the world finish watching season 1 alr. haha:D the show is super nice, quite a fresh storyline(: but today while watching i suddenly burst into tears. okok, im nt siao, it's bcos of the show. as in for those who watched, there was this really touching part when claire bennet's father's company or sumthing wanted to take claire away, then in order to protect her, her father sacrificed himself by asking the haitian guy to shoot him and take away his memories. omg, i juz felt the tears coming while watching tht part la, so i juz started crying and crying. haha, if u imagine the whole situation it's quite funny, cos i was watching on my own in my parents' room, so u cn juz imagine this solitary gal bursting into tears and crying and crying while staring at the tv screen. then juz when i was calming down and wiping my tears then my maid came in and asked me to go dinner. haha, so anti-climax. but i rarely cry when watching shows, i only cry at like those touching family relationship thingy, nt so much of the lovey dovey stuff like those i love you but i cnt be wif u. haha:D i rmb the last time i really cried while watching drama was when i watched why why love on youtube, the part where one guy wanted to donate some organ or wad to his brother to save his brother's life, but at the risk of his own life cos he has some heart prob oso. super touching oso. but i din really cry v hard tht time, juz tearing only. but tht time was super funny, cos i watching while trying to do ss notes or something. so i was tearing, watching, exclaiming and trying to study at the same time. lolx:D

school today was tiring. again. cos i had lessons straight frm morn to like 125 w/0 break like yesterday. unbearable la. hungry and tired and sian all plus together. then somemore the assembly at the end of the day drag until 2. wah... then had to rush through lunch cos gt guitar orientation at 230.

guitar orientation was quite wu liao. they juz tok to us about some admin stuff and we ended up playing whacko and double whacko the entire session. dots la. haha:D

o lvl results tmrw. to all my frens who took o lvls: u all sure will do well one!! juz go collect wif confidence and be happy after tht cos u all know tht ur hard work has paid off(:

yayy, the optimistic me is back(: i hope. haha:D thanks to a few pple, like qh who is always there for me to tok to, and jj who told me lame jokes to make me laugh and forget my emo-ness. haha:D

today was an ok day. nononono!!! tiring day i mean. lessons straight frm morn to like 1 plus. NO BREAK!!! starving to death la.. civics, then 3 lectures IN A ROW, then chem tutorial. then had 2 hr break, feeling bored and half our cls went library to mug (sigh.), so the rest of us went to play HIDE AND SEEK!! haha, so lame la. then after tht sat down and talked. then after the break still got 2 blks of lesson, gp and math. i was so tired during gp la, i couldnt pay attention at all.

then after skool met alicia, so went to eat tako pachi at j8 together. then on the way home my train was delayed for quite a while la, cos apparently there was another train broke down at novena or sumting liddat. so they made us alight at toa payoh and wait. but ok la, din wait v long. juz tht the train keep stopping at some stations for a v long time, prob to like delay..haha:D

then rush home, rest a while, then muz rush out again for guitar cls alr. but i really enjoy gg for guitar cls(: i like my tcher. and i like to know tht im learning more and more things in juz half an hour(:

reach home. exhausted. so juz slack and watch tv and came online. tht's it. i nvr do work at all today. wadeva la. haha:D dun haf stuff need to complete by tmrw(:

and i decided to give up on my jazz auds. i really dno hw to play. since i alr got into guitar then ok lor(:

realised today tht it's the really really simple things tht make me really happy. im nt asking for a lot. really.

haha, juz realised i haven blogged for v long again. i've decided to give up blogging on wad i did in the hols, cos it's juz gg to take forever.

school life's starting to kick in. i guess im starting to get used jc life alr. ok, maybe nt. i dno. i think i need more time.

feeling quite emo nowadays. bcos of many many diff things i guess. it's like suddenly im made to face many realities, and suddenly losing confidence in the stuff i used to haf confidence in. feeling a bit unwanted, a bit useless. a bit here, a bit there. it's like i dno wad's gd about me anymore. im trying really really hard, but somehow it doesnt seem to work. and im smiling when i actually feel like crying, laughing when i dun really feel laughing. juz so i dun affect those arnd me. ok, i sound really depressed. OPTIMISM. THINK OPTIMISM.