yayy!! i finally finished my commonwealth. haha:D i think my essay is so sad.. muz b i watch too many ou xiang ju.. ok, i will juz post my essay here, then you all can judge whether it is nice story. at first i wanted a happy ending lor, but i rmb last yr my essay had a happy ending then the tcher commented that it was too cliched. oh wells, my english standard is that limited.. haha:D
Title of essay: Q4-Between worlds
Darkness, something that many people fear and dread. It is like being trapped in nothingness, without being able to find an exit. Presence of invisible forces tying you down, pressing on every single inch of your body, giving you no chance of escaping, and draining away every single bit of your strength and energy. What is darkness? Something we experience when we wake up in the middle of the night? The feeling of not being able to see anything when trapped in a dark and enclosed room? To me, that is my world.
Ever since I was born, darkness was the only constituent of my visual world. Colours, shapes, images and figures, all these hold no meaning to me. Being trapped in such darkness for so long, I seemed have given up on searching for the true meaning of these words. What is the colour of the blouse I am wearing today? How does the house that I seek warmth and shelter from look like? These are the questions that I have given up pursuing. That is, before I met him.
That day was a rainy day. The sound of the raindrops hitting against the pavement and roads were somehow deafening and unbearable, causing me to pay less attention to my surroundings. All of a sudden, the sound of the continuous horning of a car brought me back to my senses. I felt a tight grip around my arm, tugging me with a great force. I lost my balance, falling on the cold and hard pavement. Feeling a sharp pain in my ankle, I let out an exclamation of pain.
“Are you feeling alright?” a low and manly voice asked. It was the voice of the man who saved me from an accident.
“Thank you for saving me. I’m feeling alright, just that my ankle…”
“You probably sprained it. I’ll bring you to a doctor.”
“Thank you so much.”
The sky continued to rain, as he walked me, step by step to the nearest clinic. Although my damp clothes caused me to shiver, the warmth from his hands gave me the strength to continue walking on. Our paths crossed and our worlds merged on that fateful day, because of the car accident that almost happened.
After work everyday, he would come to my house to take care of me, knowing that I have a sprained ankle on top of the fact that I am blind. Gradually, unknowingly, day after day, his presence has become part of my world. His caring voice and warm hands are the energy that pushes me to live my life everyday with meaning and passion. His love for me lit up my dull and dark life.
On weekends, he would bring me out to beaches, parks and gardens. Bit by bit, he would introduce his world to me, patiently and enthusiastically. I got to know about the shiny golden sand and clear blue waters at the beach, and the lush, green trees, colourful flowers and beautiful butterflies at the parks and gardens. Because of him, my interest in his other world that I am a stranger in was revived. How I long to share his joy of watching the beautiful sunrise and sunset beyond the horizon and admire the countless number of bright and shiny stars beyond the universe. Every time others mention how clear and beautiful the seven colours of the rainbow are, and big, yellow and round the moon is on the night sky, my heart will be filled with envy. All these meaningless and unfamiliar things have suddenly become of interest to me, because of him. I finally realise how much I want to be able to look, live and share his world together.
“Do you think it’s possible for me to enter your world and share all these marvelous things that you have been mentioning to me with you? Do you think I can, for once, truly open my eyes and look beyond the darkness?”
“I will do anything for you. I will look for the best doctors to cure your eyes. With me, anything is possible.”
His promise to me gave me hope and strength once again to face every day’s challenges with optimism. I believe that he will definitely fulfill his promise to me. I believe that the day will come when I am able to break away from the darkness and find the exit, which leads to the light in his world.
“In order for you to regain your eyesight, you will have to wait for a suitable donor for a cornea transplant.”
This sentence from the doctor set me on another waiting journey, this time for a suitable cornea. However, I believe that I can survive this wait, because of his love and encouragement.
“I just received a call from the doctor, he said he has found a suitable donor, and if everything goes smoothly, you will be able to regain your eyesight very soon.”
His voice was filled with hope and excitement, and upon hearing this piece of news, my heart skipped a beat in excitement, and my eyes filled up with tears. Finally, the day that I have been praying and dreaming every minute has come. I feel like I am just standing next to the door leading into his world, and the final step is just turning the knob. I have never felt so close to him before. He held me in his arms and gently wiped off the tears from my eyes. For the first time in my entire life, I put down my protective shield and hand myself fully to this man, the love and hope of my life.
“The hospital is just across the road, and I’m sure within a few days time, you will be able to see again. I will be by your side for the whole time, and I will make sure that I will be the first thing you see when you open your eyes.”
As we crossed the road, my mind was full of thoughts about his beautiful and interesting world. All of a sudden, the loud skidding of a car broke into my thoughts. My first instinct was that danger was approaching, and without any consideration, I let go for the familiar hand that has accompanied me throughout this entire journey of hope and happiness. For the first time, I pushed away this man that has brought all the light and colour into my dull and dark life.
“Bang!” I felt a great force hitting against my body, and pain surged through every single part of me. I lay on the hard gravel road limply, feeling every single ounce of strength being drained out of me. His worried and frantic voice was the last thing I sensed before drifting into unconsciousness.
“She has lost too much blood and suffered too many internal injuries. Sorry, but we have tried our best. You can go and have a last look at her.”
My eyelids feel tight and heavy. My muscles seemed to have lost their function. Just then, I feel the warm and familiar hand grasping tightly onto my hand, and I felt teardrops falling from his face. I used every last ounce of energy to force my eyes open. Just then, a miracle happened.
Bright light pierced into my eyes. My eyes felt as if it was on fire instantaneously. Gradually, the pain subsided, and the world came into view. The blurry image of his face gradually became clear. I finally stepped into his world. So this is how his world is.
“I can see you. I know you tried to fulfill your promise to me, and I know you did. I know I’m not going to make it, but I’m very contented that the gods are willing to allow me to spend the last few minutes of my life in your world. I’m really very contented that I’m able to share your world, even if it is just for a few minutes. I am very happy, really. I love you.”
Feeling the last bit of energy escaping from my body, I closed my eyes, and with a contented smile, I proceeded on to a totally different world, and this time, no matter how hard we try, our worlds will never merge again.
ok, this essay made my post super super long(:
