' i UsEd tO bELiEvE -

2010-06-18T09:26:00.000-07:00

hahaa people who still come to this blog,which is like dead,so im officially gna pronounce it dead hahahaha. i set up a new blog: iusedtobelieve.tumblr.com. ahahha this one is alive and kicking(:

2010-04-17T07:01:00.000-07:00

this wk has been crazy for me.both physically and emotionally.sometimes i wonder how much one's heart can take.

a heart is like a shelf,u keep piling things on it until eventually something falls off,and u are left to pick up the pieces.

2010-04-06T08:45:00.000-07:00

im unhappy.yupp im just gonna say it plainly.yupp,lots of things are preventing me from feeling really happy and high.thr's also another way of putting it, its tht thr's really nth much for me to be happy abt nowadays. sryy for making myself sound pmsy and stuff. maybe im realli being pmsy i dno. wadeva. im just stressed, worried and depressed abt stuff.like many stuff.stuff tht i wont elaborate abt here. i guess i juz needed to vent.ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.

i wonder if screaming helps. i guess not,it'll probably just add on to my problems.like getting complains from my neighbours.

2010-02-10T09:09:00.000-08:00

hha today was a day filled w non-stop eating.i better control my diet soon b4 i put on weight!!!hahaa cos my boss bought a lot of nice food to treat me today.first he bought me some peanut pancake he said was nice.then he bought durians!!which were super duper nice.then after cls he brought us to eat salted egg crab.which was awesome as well.hahaa he was saying the more u r conscious of wad u eat the more u will put on weight.so juz eat.but b4 tht he said his assistant who worked for him last time gained 10kg after working 6 months with him.OMG.haha im nt gna let tht happen to me.wahahaha.

im still a workaholic xD but im kinda enjoying my job,cos i've got a nice boss who gives nice treats frm time to time(: oh, and today i had my first experience of teaching like a cls.hahaa,ok la,only had 6 students,but it was still scary k!my boss always like to stress me like tht last min,ask me to teach electricity to a cls of 6.and i hvn prepared,cos it was last min.hahaa,and i was trying to show them hw a stationary wave was formed cos a guy asked,but my drawing was too ugly and they laughed at me :S hahaa,nvm im used to ppl laughing at me anw.but other than tht i survived!yayy hahaa.hope i din spoil my tcher's reputation though xD

i realised i haf to make some changes abt myself.after some thought and reflection xD and im totally learning hw to adopt an "i dun care" attitude abt everything.i kinda makes my life so much simpler and happier.

2010-01-27T05:43:00.000-08:00

i found my new crush.hehe amidst my busy work schedule(in case yall dno yet im striving to become a workaholic xD).xiao le in xia yi zhan!!!!!!!!!!!i've decided to crush 5 yr olds frm nw on.it shud make me happier(:

sighh anw i think im working too hard.im falling sick.bleahhhhh.i oso dno why im working my socks off,nt as if i need the cash.maybe i knw why.sigh wadeva.

so nw my life is basically work,watch xia yi zhan,work,watch xia yi zhan.lol.cant wait for my driving lessons to start(: so exciting.driving makes me feel grown up(: hehe.

then recently i think this song is uber nice.hehe.esp the lyrics.niceeeeeeeeeee.

他的镜框留在某一节车厢
地下铁里的风比回忆还重
整座城市一直等着我
有一段感情还在漂泊

对他唯一(如果还有)遗憾是分手那天
我奔腾的眼泪都停不下来
若那一刻重来我不哭
让他知道我可以很好

我爱他轰轰烈烈最疯狂
我的梦狠狠碎过却不会忘
曾为他相信明天就是未来
情节有多坏都不肯醒来

我爱他跌跌撞撞到绝望
我的心深深伤过却不会忘
我和他不再属于这个地方
最初的天堂最重的荒唐

如果还有遗憾又怎么样呢
伤了痛了懂了就能好了吗
曾经依靠彼此的肩膀
如今各自在人海流浪

我爱他轰轰烈烈最疯狂
我的梦狠狠碎过却不会忘
逃不开爱越深越互相伤害
越深的依赖越多的空白
该怎么去爱
我爱他轰轰烈烈最疯狂
我的梦狠狠碎过却不会忘
曾为他相信明天就是未来
情节有多坏都不肯醒来

我爱他跌跌撞撞到绝望
我的心深深伤过却不会忘
我和他不再属于这个地方
最初的天堂最重的荒唐

如果还有遗憾又怎么样呢
伤了痛了懂了就能好了吗
我奔腾的眼泪都停不下来
若那一刻重来我不哭
让他知道我可以很好

2010-01-22T08:07:00.000-08:00

registered for my driving lessons and tests and stuff ystd(: feel quite gd about it, tht's one strike off my lists of to-dos(: im trying to find stuff to do/learn to make myself feel useful other than working.hmm,but it's so difficult to find courses and stuff, at least im finding it difficult xD

today got some advice frm my boss/ex tutor about uni apps.he adviced me to do accountancy or some sciences.cos he feels im more of a science person.which is quite true act, i feel the same abt myself xD then i asked him abt studying in smu, then he said smu is ok,then he told me to do a double degree in econs and business management.then i was like siao ah, my econs uber suck xD but he said econs in uni is diff frm jc.then he told me to go read and expose myself more to real world economics maybe i will find it interesting.perhaps bah.i oso dno.then at first he said chem engineering was nt a bad idea oso.then he called his ex student to help me ask abt life in nus chem engineering, then in the end she was like dun come nus chem engineering cos its uber competitive.lol.then i was telling him hw my mum wants me to do law, then he adviced me against it cos he say i will get bullied xD i think so too hahah.i realised my tutor kan4 ren2 quite zhun3.haha.so this short talk with me inspired me to go look at the uni websites to see the courses and admission details and stuff.which left me even more discouraged and confused.haha.cos the admission criteria for the courses im thinking of all v high.sighhhhhhhhhhhh.nvm nvm,i'll make a gd decision in the end(:

i shall become a workaholic xD then maybe i'll stop thinking too much abt alot of things(:

sometimes the memories are worth the pain.

2010-01-14T08:18:00.000-08:00

hahaa i realised im working quite hard xD i din expect myself to stand working such long hours.by long i mean like for eg on sun,i work the entire day,until 10 plus at nite.sun u know!!lol.and other days too,depending on hw much admin work thr is to be done and wad clses thr are and whether i need to do any one-to-one makeup.hahaa,but strangely im nt dreading it.yet.lol.although 1-to-1's r really stressful and i always hafta prepare b4hand which means im like studying phy all over agn xD but its kinda fun seeing the j2s getting stressed out while im kinda over tht period.oops.hahahahaha.i hope i wun hafta work so long hours for the whole of 6 months.cos thr r other things i act really wna accomplish in this hol.kk let me list it out.
1. driving lessons
2. learn hw to cook(i've given up on finding clses its like so difficult,i shall buy cookbooks and experiment at hm)
3. basic dance clses?
4. resume guitar cls
5. read up on uni courses and really decide on wad i wna study
6. lookup on unis (both local and overseas)

yupp.and besides all these and work i still wna haf time for my frens.sighh sounds like mission impossible.but nvm i'll work it out.hha.i realised having work is gd in a sense i learn things and i spend my time more meaningfully,but i really means having quite a great commitment, and im nt so free to say yes so readily to my frens anymore.which makes me kinda sad): i used to be really free and readily available for most of my frens dates xD but nw i hafta see hw and beg my fren to cover me or beg my boss for off.like i haf a cls chalet coming up,but i dun knw whether i can go.and my sec4 cls dinner oso,i oso dno whether i can make it.sighhhh.im sad.cos these sort of catching up are impt to me.but i cant neglect my work commitment oso.sigh sigh sigh.luckily i managed to beg for the aftn off this sat,then i can make it for the 6a gathering!haha.i'll be really sad if i cant go,cos tht would make it the first time i miss their outing.

wells anyhow,i will try to make this hol as meaningful and enjoyable as possible(: and im getting my 1st paycheck tmr!or sat xD yayy i wonder hw much i've earned.its kinda exciting getting my 1st paycheck xD somemore i worked so hard.hahahaha.cant wait for sat(: finally sth other than work xD

2010-01-02T08:19:00.000-08:00

haha i've finally decided to blog.i was busy la k..but once agn procrastination is bad,cos nw i haf uber a lot of things to blog about.i dno whr to start.hhmph.

6a chalet 09(:
haha this yr's chalet was prolly the best we've had the past 6 yrs(: it juz gets better and better,more and more fun,as we become closer and closer(: hope as the yrs past we will be able to continue this tradition and juz haf fun tgt and enjoy each other's company amidst our busy schedules!hehe,since others haf blogged about the stuff we haf done, i shall juz write about certain more impressionable stuff hehe.i learnt a new game called molly!its quite fun act xD then me,fx and don were like the strongest trio la.hha power frm the god of whoosh xD then fx was uber funny,cos he got prob differentiating left and right, then our action was to hold the cards on the right hand and put the left hand on the knee.then when he got a flush he juz kept switching his cards frm the left to right then left hand agn xD it was uberrr funny hahahahaha:D but we still owned!hehe.when jj,qh and edwin's trio couldnt even get pass the zero mark wahahaha.

ohh then when simin came we decided to give the guys the cards tht we made for them.haha it was meant to be a surprise but i guess we din hide it v well xD but we really wrote our "zhen1 xin1 hua4" inside k, hehe hope the guys were touched(:

haha oh we had fun at the arcade as well!(: haha but i kinda bruised my poor hands while playing bishi bashi xD too engrossed alr,then hit the buttons too hard.bruised for many days la..lol.haha and i played para para for the 1st time,hoping tht i din look too stupid xD all of us took a turn,and some were juz "closet dancers" la.hahaha:D ohh and daytona.donchan taught me hw to change gear haha.cos i always juz choose manual but dun change gear xD then he helped change gear while i steer.lol a bit cheat la haha.i shall learn hw to change gear and steer at the same time nxt time xD

ohh we had a nice long htht oso.haha.if it was a few yrs back i would nvr haf imagined we could act sit down and juz talk liddat.and we really talked about really random stuff.haha frm how we feel about each other to more "censored" stuff which i dun really haf much idea about.haha.i think i looked and sounded really dumb and ignorant xD but maybe it's nt such a bad thing to stay innocent!hahaha.and i act told tht whole group about my 2 main principles about loving someone xD oh and it was really funny and shocking when simin suddenly said she had "condoms" to give us xD but act it was chocolate disguised as a condom.it was quite cute act hha.

haha and i probably destroyed my whole image the 1st morn xD cos it so happened i woke up last,realising tht i totally forgot about bringing my toothbrush.and my morn voice prob sounds a bit bim and "dia", so i totally provided a morning entertainment show for the 6a peeps.hahahaha.okok bright side bright side,at least i made them laugh(:

then bbq!haha i kinda slacked this yr, like i din really help in the bbqing xD cos i was totally helping the trio,don,fx and jj camwhore xD ant's prolly gna be sad, so fast replaced by don alr xD dun be sad!u are still impt! haha xD and they v bad la, i help them take so nice pics they somemore keep trying to take unglam shots of me.they took one uber fat photo of me la,cos donchan took it frm bottom up.uber ugly.and they v bad keep laughing and laughing.hhmphh.

haha then the highlight of the chalet.the speech by the 3 main organisers.it was totally cui1 lei4 la.i was filming,but my tears couldnt help but flow out xD finally when they were done and i could put down the cam then i started to really cry.haha it was so touching la.and i was quite malu-ed cos it seemed like only me and qh were crying v hard.then we couldnt stop.then sometimes we were laughing and crying at the same time.haha.im gna watch the speech vid agn and agn when i haf time(: and reminisce and emo agn.lol jkjk.

haha then 2nd morn i woke up the earliest la.cos i had to sleep uber straight,if nt i will either disturb yu or knock into the guys' heads xD so i decided to juz get up and wait for the rest to wake up xD

good times always pass really fast,3D2N of chalet juz passed liddat.but once agn we created much more happy memories for us to carry on to the nxt phase of our lives(: it really feels more and more like family, and i hope time will nt dilute this feeling but instead continue to strengthen the bonds between us!:D

Hongkong:D
went for a short hol to hk for the 2nd time wif me parents and auntie(: it was kinda a last minute hol plan,cos this yr my parents din plan for a trip early enuff,so most of the flights and tour packages were full by the time we decided to go book.so in the end we settled for hk xD act i wanted to go us lo, but my mum say no tickets and too rushed,so she promised to bring me this yr b4 uni starts hehe(: its winter in hk nw,so all the clothes and stuff in shops are mostly for the winter season.thts why i din buy much this time hahaa.so i juz browsed,then ate nice food,did a bit of sight seeing.haha but either im getting old,or thr's sth wrong wif my back,cos i really hurt quite badly.dno whether its cos i did too much walking.haha.sighh lao3 le4 lao3 le4 xD

Countdown to 2010 with 6a
countdown wif 6a peeps seems to haf become a tradition as well xD it was a total camwhoring session in the aftn la.haha i realised i really enjoy taking nice photos.hehe maybe i shud really take up photography xD but one thing bad about being the photographer is tht u are nt in the photos xD lol.and i sat in the flyer for the 1st time!hehe it was a nice experience,the view was quite gd(: and the photo we took was uber nice la,although it was 10 bucks,but i felt it was worth it(: everyone looked so nice in the pic,cant help but smile everytime i look at it xD

then we went marina to watch fireworks and countdown(: we had a nice htht agn(: i really think hthts are gd,it helps us understand each other more and makes it feel even more like family(: haha but im becoming more and more like glass to them la,i keep telling them more and more things about myself i dun normally tok about xD

final thoughts
haha i realised this is a uber long post.result of procrastination xD its finally 2010.2009 has truly been one of the most memorable yrs for me.filled with both painful,stressful experiences as well as warm,cheerful and fun times(: and i realised im really growing up.I'M PAYING ADULT FARE!lol i knw its nt worth such a big fuss but this really make the ageing fact strike me.well,so i shud learn to let go of the past and embrace new experiences(: act im really afraid of growing up.like really really afraid.im afraid of uncertainty.im afraid tht as time passes i will slowly forget the things tht used to make me smile.im afraid of making the wrong decisions.im afraid tht i wun live up to expectations.im afraid tht relationships will slowly fade with time.im afraid of falling behind.im afraid my scar wun heal.im afraid of being judged.im afraid of making mistakes.im afraid im afraid im afraid.but i guess fear's nt gg to change anything.so i'll juz hafta become stronger and embrace all the new challenges tht im gna face(: haha easier said than done,but i'll try my best(: after all,without the lows in life,u would nvr knw the joy and satisfaction the highs bring(:

and im act really blessed,compared to many other ppl.so i shud b satisfied and nt keep my mind focused on the unhappiness in my life.i've always had a blessed life,wif wonderful parents,a gd education,and caring frens(: i have nt really experienced lack,and i have always been in my comfort zone.sometimes i think im too protected.so much so tht im quite ignorant about basic life skills, leading to a really weak character.muz start strengthening my character,if nt i wun survive in the real world xD

ohh and i got a job!hehe.juz like tht xD tht's why i said im really quite blessed.i was juz worrying about getting a job a few days ago,cos i really dno hw to go about looking for one,then ystd morn my ex phy tutor called me to ask whether i wna go back to help him.haha.thts one of my troubles solved xD haha i really consider him a gui4 ren2 in my life lo.he really has helped me a lot,apart frm improving my phy frm an E to an A haha.all tutors shud b liddat lo, like care for their students frm the bottom of their hearts and really want them to succeed instead of juz the money.hahaa and im really quite glad i got a job.at least im starting to feel useful."nuaing" at hm really kills brain cells and doesnt do any gd to me physically,mentally and emotionally.hehe.but this means i gotta start revising my physics xD and im nt as readily available for my frens as last time.but nvm i shall do my best to balance both work and frens!hehe.as soon as i cfm my schedule(:

haha omg i realised this is really an uber long post.im gna end here xD and i shall try to update my blog regularly so this wun happen agn.hahahahahaha:D

2009-12-18T07:27:00.000-08:00

i realised im physically,mentally and emotionally tired.and saying im tired is totally an understatement.i want this wkend to pass reallyy quickly.cant wait for 6a chalet.

i think i really will miss the times with 6a.i've been relying on them a lot the past few months for the fun and laughter in my life.act im really quite scared we will gradually drift apart nxt yr.then i'll really be super emo.sighh.cnt.i cnt let tht happen.muz make effort to meet up(: yeaa i'll make sure it happens(:

2009-11-26T17:15:00.000-08:00

haha i realised i neglected my blog agn.its cos of As! and its over!yessssssssssssssssss!!haha.almost la.haha.but i've been living my life nowadays as if its all over.but act i feel quite lost.like i dun really know wad to do wif myself.i juz feel tht im totally wasting my life away hahahaha.but ok la i deserve it.after slogging for so many months.i juz felt i hvn stopped studying this entire year la.so im juz glad its over.now i can finally focus on other impt things in life.

i went out wif yu and qh ystd(: im sooooo glad these people had a part to play in my life.and of cos nt forgetting my weihan darling as well.they are soooooooooo super duper sweet la!im so touched by everything they haf done for me, all the time they spent on my stuff.these ppl nvr fail to surprise and make me smile(: frens forever and ever and ever and ever k!!!!!!!!!! haha i can imagine us as old grandmothers sitting in squeaky rocking chairs, reminiscing about all the gd times we had together(: luyallllllllllllllllllllllll<3333333333333

haha gg out wif the 6a peeps today.these are another group of impt ppl in my life.hope we'll haf loads and loads of fun and accumulate so many happy memories we can all carry wif us whereever we may be in the future!!!:D

2009-09-28T07:01:00.000-07:00

its like the 3rd day after my prelims.and my mum has told at least 10 times tht i should nt treat it like hols and start mugging for As.i mean i can understand whr she's coming frm, but sometimes its juz gets so..i dno.i mean i really know wad she's saying is for my own gd.but u know the way she puts it is like my prelims ended 1 month ago and i've been slacking since then.but after so long im expecting tht she has some faith in me.do i look like the type who will slack and nt care about her studies?i know it myself.i may like to haf fun,watch tv and stuff,but in the end i will know when i hafta start working hard.but apparently she doesnt understand tht.and she juz keeps saying the same thing over and over agn.as if the more she says it the better i will be in my studies.i mean my mum is a great mum and i luv her and everything,but i guess she has tht naggy gene tht all mums haf.and i haf nvr been a rebellious kid.but nowadays i keep having this thought:the more she tell me to do something the more i dun feel like doing it.hahaha.okok.let me think positive.

my mum is saying all tht for my own gd.
i shud stop procrastinating and start mugging for As.
if i start early i will be less stress towards the end.
i muz be a gd gal and listen to my mum.
i slacked for 3 days alr.
i will regain my total freedom in less than 3 months.
studying will take my mind off things.
im working hard for my future.

yesyesyes.go me.

i shud stop yearning for a life.studying is my life.omgggg.

2009-09-26T10:01:00.000-07:00

i realised i have abandoned my poor blog for almost 2 months.haha i guess i abandoned quite a lot of things these 2 months,thx to the all impt prelims.and i sort of din perform as well as i wanted myself to,despite all the trying-my-best-to-mug-as-hard-as-possible thingy.oh wells.sometimes i think i juz expect too much.whether it is studies,or other things tht i deem impt in my life.sometimes i wonder if i would be better off if i hadnt experienced those few moments,moments tht i took for granted after a while,moments tht made me feel tht i was quite blessed actually,moments tht left me expecting more.looking back,i realised those moments are,if u put it in chi, ke3 yu4 bu4 ke3 qiu2.sometimes i really dun understand.i guess there are some things tht i never will understand.from time to time i will convince myself tht im really a v blessed person,and its really stupid to keep harping on things tht make my life seem like a mess.it really isnt.im so much better off compared to many other ppl,so i shud really be contented.

haha its funny hw b4 the prelims i would always think of the day when prelims finally end,and how relieved and happy i would feel.but when its finally here,i realise im nt as relieved and happy as i expected myself to be.and im like so used to the routine of studying studying studying tht i dun really know wad to do wif the extra time i haf on my hands nw.and sometimes i dun really like the extra time.it gives my mind the chance to run wild,bringing up memories tht make my heart squish into a lump,imagining all the things tht may or may nt haf happened,all the what-ifs,pondering about all the unanswered questions,wondering hw things can juz take a 360 degree change overnight.over this period of time i made a new discovery.i realised heartache is not just a descriptive word,used when a person is feeling extremely hurt and upset.it really hurts.like the word ache suggests.i never knew.

omg i realised its like 1 am in the nite,and im supposed to be slping,and yet im writing all these emo crap.haha maybe cos i spent a major part of today reading an emo book.oh wells,i shall stop acting like an emo kid and go to bed nw.

2009-07-29T05:55:00.000-07:00

haha thx to charleen, i found out my hands and fingers are super fat!or shud i say chubby.haha sound nicer xD really as in i always knew my fingers are nt nice and slim, but i juz realised today they are much fatter than normal!!lol.like when i stretch out my fingers straight, then there will be dimple like thingies at my knuckles lei.omg.haha.esp my right hand.haha nvm i shall brainwash myself into believing my hands look chubbily cute xD

hha and i think i need to start studying properly.like really conc and start mugging hardcore.but i cant really do tht at home.hhmph.i think i need to haf study groups again.if nt im dead to the maxxxxx.haha:D

2009-07-21T04:05:00.000-07:00

lol.milestone in life man.i got h1n1 xD and today's the official 2nd day im having sick leave at home. 1wk cnt go sch lei! i think im dead when i go back nxt wk.ohwells, juz 'enjoy' while i can.lol.my cls got 6 ppl absent wif flu like symptoms oso.and nw the rest of my clsmates are being trapped in a prison xD haha no la, its juz once they go to sch they muz go to a particular room and stay there until its time to go home.break oso cnt go canteen lei..omg i feel quite bad i think its cos of me xD sighh i shall make a proper apology when i go back nxt wk.

2009-07-18T02:47:00.000-07:00

i've gotta stop letting others actions and decisions control my emotions.some things just need getting used to.just like how i got used to having those things in the first place.

withdrawal syndrome.

2009-07-13T08:05:00.000-07:00

i think trying nt to cry is wad i do best nowadays.thankfully there still exist things tht make me smile.

2009-06-19T07:16:00.000-07:00

i dont want the hol to end.i dun want everything to end.

back to reality.

2009-05-29T09:32:00.000-07:00

yayy today was a gd day(: guitar concert went super smoothly:D and i din haf any major mistakes.yayy(: i thot i would lor,seeing tht during rehearsal i sounded so bad.hha but luckily nv.yayy thx everyone for coming!6a peeps, 6U peeps, sarah, lin, ali, anzie, hc, yongzhu, and everyone else(:though concert was quite short.haha.it juz zoomed by liddat.anw v weird lei.today after concert i was walking in sch, then got this random guy suddenly say to me "nice singing".but the prob is i dun even know the guy!! haha.so funny xD

yayy and holidays are here.though its like a mugging hol.but i do need time to catch up.im like lagging so much.sigh.okok today is a gd day, i shall nt spoil wif unhappy thots(:

and i luv my care bear(: and the flowers:D

2009-05-28T04:51:00.000-07:00

haha its like the last day of sch tmr.so the restlessness is kinda setting in.it's like i cant sit thru lessons, and i feel super duper slack.im supposed to be studying for sats.and ct2.and catching up on overdue work.but im nt.haha.im always liddat.got time then slack.no time then panic.oh well.

yayy tmr's concert.im excited.and nervous.and i hope i dun forget my lyrics or go out of tune or both xD

2009-05-19T07:19:00.000-07:00

something my ct said today tht i thot made a lot of sense.

when we were young,and people asked about our dreams, we were bold enuff to say huge and ambitious dreams, like being a pilot,an astronaut, a mermaid.

but when we grow up,our replies tend to be "im nt sure.see hw it goes." wad happened to the boldness?

2009-05-16T11:02:00.001-07:00

today is good day((:

2009-05-11T07:44:00.000-07:00

im like hallucinating.why do i keep hearing vibrations when there isnt any??

2009-05-09T01:04:00.000-07:00

yayy me and char got thru the auditions!!haha:D yayy so we'll be performing for concert:D haha so happy.cos at first we were really scared we sound v unpro and noob.and our performance would be very 'diao'.haha.yayy, but luckily we din decide to give up.life is about taking chances rite?hha.ok nw i hafta really go memorise my lyrics properly.haha yayy.

2009-05-07T06:04:00.000-07:00

bleah i miss my mum.she went overseas without me.haha i think nxt time if i go overseas study she muz migrate wif me xD last time i go isle vietnam for 2 wks i was super homesick alr, cnt imagine if it's like 4 to 5 yrs.

yesterday i had auditions for guitar concert small groups.haha me and char sort of tried our best.although we may nt sound as pro as the rest, at least sounded nice i hope.hahahaha.act i wont be super sad if we dun get in la, at least we tried.haha, at least some ppl said we sing v nice xD but i v angry, i forgot about the he2 sheng1.lol.we would have sounded even nicer.lol.wah but nw the 2 songs are stuck in my head.cos ystd i was so nervous i scared i forget the lyrics i juz kept running thru the songs in my head over and over again.haha.but at least they are nice songs(:

haha, and i think some of my tchers v cute and funny lei.like my pe tcher.but i think only me and char are amused by him.and my new econs tcher.nt exactly new la, he's juz taking over for a while, then he always make quite funny comments.then he say his wife nt in spore so he's v lonely, so today he spent like the first few minutes of the lessons juz chatting wif us, telling us about his ex student and stuff, cos he say his wife overseas so he has no one to tok to.haha.then he say he has this fat cat who doesnt cure his feeling of loneliness.cos when he tok to the cat it doesnt respond.haha.so cute.

anw, i shudnt be slacking anymore.haha.i shud be studying for my h3 exam.and chem spa.and chem lecture test.and all my unfinished hmk.and everything else tht makes me sick of my life):

2009-05-04T06:45:00.000-07:00

im feeling stressed and worried about super a lot of things again.i wonder how much can my heart take.

monday blues.

2009-04-20T05:35:00.000-07:00

yesterday i heard f4's song on radio.then dno pri sch memories came back to me.haha.i had the whole pri sch feel.perhaps i really miss life then.happy, relaxed, carefree(:

2009-04-18T07:28:00.000-07:00

went to watch movie with char after guitar today.knowing.quite nice la, though the ending was a bit dotzz.but generally a v nice show.quite scary at some parts la.but i think only me and char were quite freaked out xD cos the whole theatre seemed quite calm.haha.then the show was like hw this person predicted all the disasters tht happened in the world, then how everyone was gg to die on this certain day.then it's got something to do wif the sun burning up the earth and killing everyone.then i was thinking during the movie,the weather v hot nowadays lei.really noe, the sun is like especially hot nowadays.haha.okok shall nt imagine things xD

bleah it's alr the end of sat.the wkend's almost over again.nvm at least i watched a nice movie this wkend(:

2009-04-16T06:27:00.000-07:00

bleah.i really dun like chem spa skill a.i spent 2 plus hrs reading the notes, and nw i cant rmb anything.

and i realised i really cant stand ppl saying 'shh' like super loudly.haha.i nt ap-ing or anything, but i find tht the 'shh' noise is even louder and more irritating than the actual noise ppl are makingxD haha.

2009-04-14T03:50:00.000-07:00

haha today our sch had some 'thanks actually' campaign, then our cls guys v nice they bought each of the gals a flower(: so sweet(: haha then char v funny lei, she was smelling the flower then she say no smell. then after tht she said "no cnt put too near ur nose, after the spores go in ur nose then flowers were start growing out of ur nose." hahahahaha:D so lame.

2009-04-11T07:25:00.000-07:00

"She is not my girlfriend.She's not you."--quoted from confessions of a shopoholic.

so sweet!!haha:D quote of the day(:

2009-04-09T07:10:00.000-07:00

haha yayy i went shopping wif my mum for the first time since like foreva today(: and my mum's super generous today xD i realised shopping really makes me happy.ok this is nt a thing to be proud of xD but i guess the nxt time i can go shopping will be like i dno when.nvm.i shall concentrate on mugging to success xD ok i sound like a no life mugger.hahahaha:D

2009-04-05T06:42:00.001-07:00

i think im gg to cough out blood soon xD and i got conjunctivitis!! and i thot things were supposed to get better.sigh.nvm.things WILL get better from nw.since it cant possibly get worse xD yea(:

2009-04-03T10:19:00.000-07:00

bleah my throat's getting worse.and my cough's getting worse too.cries.okok, things can only get better.go go go!!!

2009-04-01T04:33:00.000-07:00

yayy cts and h3 test finally over(: but im down wif a bad flu): i think the fever yesterday killed my brain cells.i cant do like more than half the h3 paper today.but i din feel anything.i think this is called desensitization. ok on the bright side things can only get better(: go me!:D

2009-03-12T07:02:00.000-07:00

nth's gg my way nowadays.super depressed and stressed!!i study but my test results are like crap, everyday i come home super drained, and i still need to study study study!!! im gg maaaaadddd.hope something comes along to brighten up my life, if nt i will srsly foam and pop and dieeeeee.

true love is when you fall in love with the same person over and over again.

2009-03-09T06:17:00.000-07:00

common tests in exactly 2wks.i dieeeeeeee.

but today during lecture while i was stressing about how im gg to finish studying for cts, this quote juz appeared in front of my eyes.i mean i happened to glance at this quote on someone's pencil box.it says 'you define your limits'. haha.so i was quite motivated.I CAN DO IT!

2009-03-03T07:24:00.001-08:00

i should work even harder for the things i wna achieve, and stop dreaming about the what-ifs.

tired):

2009-02-16T05:18:00.000-08:00

i had the coolest gp lesson of my entire life today.my new relief gp tcher is super cool.i think she studied some psychology thing, and she asked us to write like about 10 random sentences containing the word "I", then she can tell our personalities and character purely based on our handwriting!super cool!and she was spot on k!!for me at least.i felt like i was totally seen thru.so cool!!i know wad i want to study nxt time alr.haha.but she only reliefing for 3wks.so sad.all my reliefs are cool, but my permanents are..yea.haha.

2009-02-15T06:41:00.001-08:00

yay its the end of another wkend.v day wkend.haha.i guess for singles like me it's nt v exciting xD hope all the couples you3 qing2 ren2 zhong1 cheng2 juan4 shu3!!

anw,i really think the guys in my cls v sweet.haha.u know wad they prepared for the gals for vday?each of them contributed like one thing, like balloon, jigsaw, notes, origami, cookie, then they put together nicely and give the gals!! so sweet rite.haha.and there's a note inside the balloon as well!haha, but my balloon haven burst yet, so i haven read the msg.we oso did something for the guys k, we made this photo frame thingy.haha.yayy 6u rox(:

hope i will survive another hectic wk(:jiayou me.

is it true?or is it just false hope bring my spirits up,only to make me hurt more when it crashes.

2009-02-08T04:50:00.000-08:00

actually i dno why im blogging.i dun haf anything to say.haha.

it's the end of the wkend again.or shud i say, wad wkend?haha.

it's alr halfway thru term 1.bleahxD the end of terms are the most stressful.

oh i haf an inflamed knee nw.cos i fell down during take 5.painful!!!

2009-02-01T07:22:00.000-08:00

do you ever haf days where all the depressing and worrying things come to haunt you all at the same time?

today is one of those days.

2009-01-21T05:09:00.000-08:00

today i was having dinner at eastpoint before guitar cls alone as usual.then i was eating katsu don.i always thot i liked katsu don k.but somehow it wasnt nice at all today.then i finally realised, it wasnt the chicken in katsu don tht i liked,but the mayo i ate wif the chicken.there wasnt mayo today.

all my life i thot tht i liked something,but in the end i realise tht i've been pursuing the wrong thing all along.

2009-01-17T07:17:00.000-08:00

haha yall can officially call me tuition queen:D im like tuition-ing every subject except for math.hardcore rite?haha.so my schedule this yr will be crazily packed.

mon: sch end 250pm, then guitar 5 to 730pm
tues: sch end 125pm, then h3 math 330 to 530pm
wed: sch end 1230pm, then guitar 230 to 530pm, then guitar cls 730 to 800pm
thurs: sch end 220pm. (my only early day xD)
fri: sch end 220pm, then h3 math 330 to 630pm, then econs tuition 730 to 930pm
sat: phy tuition 930 to 1130am, then gp tuition 530 to 730pm
sun: chem tuition 3 to 5pm

haha so as yall can see, my only recrea of the wk is guitar cls xD and as it is i alr haf really little time to do my own schwork and tuition hmk.haha.

lol.i get freaked out myself.BUT I WILL SURVIVE!!!!(:

coincidence.affinity?

2009-01-12T05:24:00.000-08:00

my first day of sch was one word: sian. ok la, sian describes the lecture and lessons part.we had homecoming in the morn, like welcome speech by the principal, some performances, a video with memories of 2008, cls breakfast and stuff.ok la, i think our sch welfare dept quite gd(: they really made quite an effort la, even printed out photos and stuff to display in the canteen.

i spent the last few days clearing my phone inbox of msgs.i had like 3000 over msgs la, made my phone laggy.so i cleared frm 3000 over msgs to about 600 plus, ONE BY ONE.cos my phone somehow doesnt haf the delete all option, and i oso haf msgs tht i wna keep.haha.i shud applaud my patience.but juz as i was deleting i got to look thru old msgs as well.reminded me of some old memories.i love to reminisce(: life may bring about many disappointments that make me feel broken, but it's all the happy moments that make me feel whole again(:

2009-01-11T01:33:00.000-08:00

today is the last day of my last proper holiday until after a's.**sobxx**

sigh..when sch reopens, my schedule is gg to be one word:tight.srsly, i thot about my schedule nxt yr, i realised i really dun haf much free time.mon i haf guitar, tues i haf h3, wed i haf guitar and guitar cls, thurs is my only free day, fri i haf h3 then tuition, sat i haf tuition.bleah.nvm nvm, after this yr, im gg to slack all i want(:

this hols haf been fun and fulfilling(: im gg to reminisce about it.haha:D

but i realised i haf been really really slack this hols.after hearing about hw much work my wonderful schoolmates haf done.wad tys,promo papers..haha.oops i haven done any.okok im gg to buck.strive for the "a"s!!!!!!!!!!

2009-01-07T06:05:00.000-08:00

haha i realise i havent blogged for quite long.actually i got a lot of things to blog about.but im juz too lazy xD

anw, i had a fruitful holiday i guess.extremely unfruitful in the mugging sense.but fruitful in the rest and relaxation and socialising part.haha.

let me recap.. after vietnam, i went japan/taiwan for holiday!!! haha, super fun.and the scenery at hokkaido was fantabulous.and i saw snow fall from the sky for the first time!! haha:D it's so pretty la.the whole place was covered with soft snow.

this scenery looks like it came out from some korean drama xD

oh and other than the scenery,the food was super too!!let the pictures do the talking(:

this crab is HUGE rite!!! i've nvr seen such a huge crab in my entire life.anw, this went into my tummy xD

the chopped up version xD i ate the claws raw k!! i din know u could eat crabs raw xD

and this is the kobe beef.melts in the mouth xD

oh another fun part of the trip, i rode this snowmobile thing.haha.super fun.i was so worried i would lose control xD cos we were riding along this mountain course thing, so if u were nt careful u can fall off the slopes xD

then taiwan(: taiwan was juz shopping shopping and more shopping!haha cos in japan couldnt do much shopping cos the stuff were so above budget xD oh the food was awesome too.cheap and gd(:oh this women, i always see her in taiwan variety shows.she's like in wacky dressing selling bbq stuff.she's really friendly! :D

haha and this ultra long ice cream, i specially went to danshui to buy xD act it doesnt taste v gd.haha.but it's really quite special(:

haha yea tht's my holiday!!my nxt hol will be after a's )):

yea another fun thing was 6a chalet!haha.it has become an annual affair.and nxt yr may be our last one.so sad): anw, this yr's chalet was quite fun!! haha, but i keep on getting suaned.whole day bully me lor.first was the rj hotdogs thing.then was the lizard thing.cos we went cycling.then while i was cycling, this 'thing' suddenly fell on me!!!! i thot it was a twig at first lor, but after 5 sec i realised it was a lizard!!!!!! so i juz braked and started screaming xD so they keep saying i attract lizards.cos when we were bbqing there were super a lot of lizards on the wall.then it was the rj wings vs hc wings thingy.haha.tht was super lame.haf video as evidence.but seriously the wings i bbqed were nice la.but the fire was too hot.haha.so i bbqed until my fingers swelled la.like zhu1 jiao3.haha.

oh another fun part of the chalet, i felt la, was the playground nite.haha.at first we went there cos the guys buried this bottle thingy with their new yr resolutions there like 2 yrs ago, so they wanted to go dig it.but they had no perseverence lor.dig a while then give up alr.haha.so we ended up playing wif the swings and the see saw.i haven sat on a swing for v long alr!!super fun.haha.oh and don and jj playing on the see saw.i was watching the vid wp took of them.haha.u wont believe they are alr j2s lor!! xD

yea so chalet was fun(: but nxt yr muz ban ps.haha.i guess it means something tht we managed to stay gd frens for so long(:hope tht we will still stay in contact after nxt yr!!:D

oh ya then there was the countdown.wif 6a peeps again.haha.u can call it another tradition(: we went for steamboat at bugis there, then went to watch fireworks on the marina sq rooftop!haha.super nice la.i haven seen fireworks properly for v long.minutes into 2009, me and qh were reflecting on 2008, like whether it was a gd yr and if it was wad made it good.i guess for me, 2008 has been one of the greatest yrs in my life.i can see myself changing and improving, and tht i made v gd frens and got to be part of one of the best classes ever(: yea, and 2009's gg to be better!!:D it's gg to be a hectic yr, but im sure we will all pull thru!

haha ok i realise this is a super duper long post.im gg to end by whining.i dun want sch to start!!!!!!!! ))):

2008-12-10T08:43:00.000-08:00

okie im here to blog bout my bdae!!really really a big big thankew to every single one of you who remembered my bdae and wished me and showered me wif lots of love(: i had one of the best bdaes this yr, and it's all bcos of you, you, you, you, you!!!!:D esp char and xf, tht bdae surprise was special!! thx for the special effort! and the cake was delicious, tho i din bear to cut it as first cos it was so pretty.but i took lots of pics b4 i cut it!!:D

and to qh oso, for tht really special video.thx for all the effort!!!it's really precious to me(:
and everyone who spent my bdae wif me,who smsed me bdae wishes filled wif luv,who sent me bdae emails, who wished me online, who wished me on facebook, all ur lovely gifts, for juz remembering!!:D luvyall!!<3

2008-12-06T23:39:00.000-08:00

i bit my lip at the same spot for a grand total of 7 times over 2 mealsXD ok random.

yayy im gg to be 17 in approximately 8 hrs and 20 min.

ok yall can tell im really bored.

2008-12-05T19:36:00.000-08:00

yayy im back from vietnam((: i guess it was a great experience, i had great teammates, i think we totally rocked, the villagers there rocked too, they were so nice, so genuinely sincere and caring.the children were awesome, i guess sometimes a simple life may not be a bad thing after all. the children were so cute la.i learnt loads of stuff from them. i went there expecting to teach them, but in the end i think i brought back more than i could ever ask for.except for the freezing weather,cold water, and the fact that i missed home so much, everything else was awesome(:

we painted murals there, and i thot we did a really great job.the murals looked really pretty!!

oh the last one there rite, the one with sunflowers, it looks so pretty rite, like some sunshine house, but it's actually a really rundown toilet, the type tht has only a hole in the ground. cnt tell rite? :D

oh and these are some of my favourite kids <333333

this is ching.she's my no 1 fav.she's super chio and cute!!!!!

this is chum, ching's bro.he's quite flirt and poser.hahaXD

this is yumin's handsome boy, kien.i think he's gd looking too!!

this is herm.she cried for me when i was leaving on the last day):

the little gal is phuong.she's a little rascal la!but she's really cute when she's nt doing evil things.she pulled down one of my guy teammates pants!!!!!!her mission is like to pull down all the pants of the guys in my teamXD
the little guy is hwee.he doesnt tok much, but he's super cute too!!

this is nam, yumin's fav boy.i think he's super shuai!!

this is mafia boy.dun you think he looks like a mafia boss?haha;D

this is ming.he calls all the gals 'biao', which means fat to get their attention, then when we turn our attention to him then he will change to 'kon biao' which means nt fat.then he will keep saying beautiful beautiful.haha:D

finally this is hom.he's the fat guy i see in the village!!haha, cos everyone in the village seems to be really thin and small for their age, but he's the only fat one.haha.but he's super nice.when my fren's hands were freezing then he held her hands juz to keep them warm!!so nice!!

oh and we din juz work the whole of the 2 wks. we went out for some look see and fun in the village too.we went to visit the tea plantations there(:

the scenery is juz the best(:

yep, so this was a great learning experience, i had fun, i learnt values, i learnt vietnamese. and of cos nt forgetting these ppl who made this trip all the more enjoyable!

my mosquito net partner cum roommate:D

my room 1 mates(:

my group 3 mates(:

2008-11-18T23:03:00.000-08:00

im gg vietnam tmr!! dno whether im feeling excited, scared, doubtful etc.haha.mixed feelings.but 2 wks feel v long to be away..haha.i will miss a lot of things.like my family, my frens, my hse, my bed, computer, tv,guitar,shops...haha.but on the nicer side, i can get to see stuff i nvr see b4, experience life i haf nvr experienced b4..but seriously, im quite scared.cos i feel homesick v easily.hmm.nvm, i will strengthen my heart.haha.become a stronger person(:see yall in 2wks(:

2008-11-08T06:41:00.000-08:00

yayy cls chalet officially ended yesterday.it was super long la, 4D3N, but i felt it passed by really quickly.haha.i think its cos the first 2 days we woke up quite late, like 10 plus.and the 3rd day i had to go back to skool for stupid h3 math lecture.boring la.i was dying in there.cos i din bring uni.so i had to borrow from caohui's boarding roommates.then me and xf were too lazy to really change, so we juz put the uni over our shorts and shirt.haha.quite funny.somemore the lt was unexpectedly stuffy.so i was restless,tired,bored and giddy at the same time cos of the stuffiness.it was an unbearable 2hrsXD then we like 'stripped' as we were outside the lt la.cos caohui needed the uni back, so me and xf decided to juz 'strip'.super comical.yea.

ok bsck to the chalet.act nw i think back, i oso cnt rmb wad we did exactly.i dun rmb doing much, but the time juz passed.lets see, the first day we checked in at 5, then nt many ppl yet, so we were juz lazin arnd and watching yu le bai fen bai.then went for dinner.then came back to watch dark knight.then played snap.oh then we all sat arnd the bed, turn off the lights and told ghost stories.super fun.haha.and quite creepy oso.cos we pushed 2 single beds together, and i happened to be sitting at the small gap there,so there was this cold wind blowing at my legs.haha.but we digressed.from ghost stories to dreams to scary dreams etc.

the nxt day woke up,went for brunch,slacked arnd playing random things in the chalet, like badminton,o2mania,cards.then we went cycling.we taught xiaoxi hw to cycle(: she learns super fast.i predicted she wont take v long to learn, cos she's brave(: then i had to go for guitar cls.haha.came back at nite,played citadels.then took a walk to the red hse at 2 plus in the morn.haha.was quite creepy la.the place was all fenced up,then had vines growing all over the fence.the windows were boarded up oso,but dillon said if it werent, if we looked into the window we would see a rocking chair with a doll sitting on it.scary.....apparently it became an abandoned haunted hse cos everytime they tried to demolish it, something will happen to delay it,until they gave up trying to demolish it.after tht still din slp lei,cos the boys wanted to eat,so we went mcdonalds.i felt extremely guilty eating macs at 3 plus in the morn,so i only drank ice milo.haha.

the nxt day,went for breakfast at macs again!!haha.then i had to go skool.then when i came back it was time for bbq alr.bbqing was quite fun(:mr ong came too(:bbqing ended really late, so by the time everyone took turns to wash up, it was 2 plus alr!!then we watched batman begins.it was a good show,but i was really too tired to really watch it.haha.in the end we slpt at 5!!

finally last day alr.woke up at 9, packed up,checked out,went for breakfast.then we went arcade.it was fun(:and xf and i make great partners for the basketball shooting machine.we missed stage 4 by 3 pts!! 247.record(: then we went bowling(: bryan was imba la.he got 4 strikes in a row!!!!! i got a 2 spares(: considering the fact i haven bowled for v v long,it wasnt too badXD then we were hungry so we went foodcourt to eat.and we sat there for 2 hrs juz eating and toking.

all in all, chalet was quite fun(: but the slping part was really limited.haha.but tht's the fun part bout chalets(:

2008-11-03T07:13:00.000-08:00

today my grandma got admitted to hospital.then i was listening to the doctor.its funny how ppl tok bout making decisions of whether to do everything possible to keep the person alive or let the person leave comfortably when the person is in actual fact still alive.hmm.i guess its part of the protocol.

i saw a lot of old ppl in the hospital today.my grandma oso.i realise becoming old is really quite..i cant think of a word.i cant imagine one day im gg to become liddat oso.frail,weak,dependant.and ready to leave the world anytime.i wonder where ppl go after they leave.is it realli such a sad thing?

2008-10-31T04:56:00.000-07:00

weeeeeeeeeee!i finished op alr.haha.it's juz one step away to the completion of pw.left my last attempt at editing my i&r and submitting it.then i would kiss pw goodbye forever(:

and my foot's still painful..why so long?!i wan it to heal NAO!haha i sound like a spoilt kid.nxt wk got cls chalet!i wna go roller blading and cycling.so it must heal by mon.MUST.haha.

2008-10-30T01:57:00.000-07:00

pw op tmr!! im freaking out.make it, or break it.

2008-10-28T08:27:00.000-07:00

haha, ok by request of ms charlotte goh, i shall blog about the funny thing tht happened during phy prac.lol.i still feel like laughing when i think of it.

cos me and char were bored during phy prac/tutorial.so we were trying to write upside down.like writing the word raffles upside down.then i tried.then i realised i wrote the letter 'f' the wrong way when i turned the paper around.at first i thot i wrote correctly, but when i turned the paper arnd i realised it was wrong, then i told char 'oh! my f!' then after i said it i realised it sounded vulgar.even char say she shocked why i suddenly say tht.lol. it was super funny. like super duper funny.im still laughing as im typingXD

yayy tmr last day of sch(:

2008-10-25T06:11:00.000-07:00

i realised today.i really luv children(: i always knew i liked children, but today i realise i luv working wif them and making them happy.haha.cos today i went to do cip at a care centre.we played games,taught them hmk,and told them stories.they were like hyperactive la.running arnd all the time.a bit hard to control.but they were cute all the same.there was this boy who asked me will i be coming back nxt wk? haha.so sweet.at least i made a difference to their lives:D

oh.and i had 2 injections yesterday.pain!!!

2008-10-22T05:36:00.000-07:00

lol i think im super accident prone.last sat i juz tumbled down the stairs and sprained my foot.then today while i was stirring soup then dno hw it spill on my finger.burnt.nt v serious la, but v painful.then yesterday i discovered a cut on my leg, dno when it was inflicted. hahaXD

juz came home frm guitar cls.haha i was taking mrt and bus, dno why i felt the whole world was staring at me.sprain leg onli wad.haha.nt used to being the "centre of attention".lol.

2008-10-20T06:25:00.000-07:00

i juz finished watching absolute bf.and i couldnt stop crying.i think i used like half a box of tissue.haha.its my fav drama nw:D night's so sweet!!!but so poor thing. at first i thot he wasnt gg to die lor.so saddddddd!!!why muz he dieeeee?!?!he's like the sweetest guy(robot)i've ever seen:D complete wif human emotions somemore.sobxxx.i cried even harder than for money no enough 2.i think i looked retarded.cos i was juz staring at the pc and crying hysterically.hahahahaha:D

2008-10-18T06:09:00.000-07:00

haha i sprained my ankle for the first time in my life today.at one of the worst places oso.lol.cos i had my isle pre trip camp frm yesterday to this afternoon, then this morn we went macritchie to hike at some trail.it was super duper long.but anyway, then we were given this task of partnering and having one person blindfolded then the other person is supposed to guide.so accident prone me missed a step while being blindfolded and fell in the most unglam manner possible.hahaXD yup, so i sprained my ankle like right in the middle of a forest.so getting out was tiring.nt so for me, but for my teammates, esp the guys.cos i couldnt walk properly and the road was all bumpy and uneven.so the guys had to take turns to piggy back me.i felt so bad, cos it was alr so tiring, then they still had to carry me. thanks guys! then when i felt i could walk then the gals had to support me oso. i like slowed the entire group down.i felt so badXD thanks to all my teammates, if nt i think i wont be able to make it back to civilisation.haha:D

yep, so i think i wont be walking normally for the nxt few days. apparently its a torn ligament. booD: hope it wont become like ba zhang.

but camp was quite fun generally la. i got to know a lot of ppl much better, cos b4 the camp we din know each other v well, so it was a bit hard to bond and everything,but nw it's much better:D yayy, hope i can survive my trip to vietnamXD

2008-10-15T07:58:00.000-07:00

bleah, today had pw dry run.cant believe i sat in the same clsroom the entire day la, frm 8 in the morn to 5.lol.but nw im drainedXD somemore last nite slept at one!!doing pw.i want pw to be over soon!!!

gg home from guitar cls today, then noticed the moon v round today:D haha. v bright oso. v preeettty:D

sometimes i think i reveal too much.

2008-10-12T05:42:00.000-07:00

cos im trying, trying to walk away, but i know this crush aint going away...

i luv this song(: david archuleta, crush(:

2008-10-10T07:52:00.000-07:00

i fell in luv wif doing jigsaw nowadays. the thrill of seeing the beautiful picture form bit by bit is definitely fulfilling(:

then i thot of an analogy:
life is like a jigsaw puzzle; a piece missing and it will nvr be complete again.

2008-09-26T08:25:00.001-07:00

weeeeeeeee!!!!! my promos are officially over.haha.no more mugging for at least 3 wks(:

haha today went out wif my cls to celebrate. we went to eat jap food at some ichiban restaurant at centrepoint, then went minds cafe(: super fun la.my cls rox. we were playing taboo and citidel.everyone was juz chillin out and having fun.

and yesterday i really felt the warmth of my wonderful clsmates.cos i totally messed up my chem promos yesterday, so i was crying after tht.im so glad i haf my clsmates la.they realli made me feel much better.thx for all the encouraging msgs! i reali realli appreciate it:D u guys rock!haha.

yes.nw tht promos are finally over im gg to search for my life again.i wna do a lot of things.like watch drama,find new songs,go out,watch movie,roller skate,ice skate,kbox,shopping,haf fun.haha.

yayy.hello life:D

2008-09-13T06:05:00.000-07:00

i wonder hw much it takes to make someone snap.

promos in one wks time.hope i can survive it.i mean, seeing everyone's so pin1, makes me even more stressed than i alr am.promos onli rite,can promote can alr rite?but apparently nobody thinks like me.oh well.

i need something to look forward to.im tired, stressed and unhappy.hw much worse can it get?

i think the lyrics of this new song is nice:D

沿海公路的出口 - S.H.E

用半截烟蒂烧一场蜃楼
借这场大雨让自己逃走
慌茫公路无人的漂泊
寂寞海啸把我卷走

用一段感情换一个朋友
每一句再见割一道伤口
躺在万劫不复的街头
微笑参透覆水难收
倘若说放一次手
就像咳一个嗽
我又何苦在乎得不到的温柔

我坐在公路的出口
等待天黑以后无边的寂寞
连想你都是种残酷切磋
我目送沿海的日落
紧抱一个醉生梦死的枕头
留不住回忆却学不会放手怎么走

倘若说放一次手
就像咳一个嗽
我又何苦在乎得不到的温柔
我坐在公路的出口
等待天黑以后无边的寂寞
连想你都是种残酷切磋
我目送沿海的日落
紧抱一个醉生梦死的枕头
留不住回忆却学不会放手怎么走

qh oso put on her blog.haha.i nt copying u ah.juz feel like putting oso:D

你好吗
周笔畅&李玖哲

温柔的时间抚平我们的亏欠
过几天过几年伤会好一点
多久没见面孩子气有没有变
还记得我们从前笑得那么甜 baby
我想起你你有了他
是否依然为了爱变得很傻
我想起你你有一个他
好久都没说的话你好吗

温柔的缠绵我已放下了依恋
过几天过几年伤会好一点
我收着照片安静在盒子里面
回忆是你我剩下唯一的关联 baby
我想起你你有了他
是否依然为了爱变得很傻
我想起你你有一个他
好久都没说的话你好吗
问候是我对你好想说出的话
现在你过得好吗

我想起你你有了他
是否依然为了爱变得很傻
我想起你你有一个他
好久都没说的话你好吗

this song is nice too.although it's old song alr.

ok i shud b studying.like the rest.

回忆是你我剩下唯一的关联

2008-08-19T07:40:00.000-07:00

im here to resuscitate my blog.haha.

everyday's so tiring nwadays.it's like a mad rush to the promos and other assessments.im like expected to face my notes every single min tht im nt occupied.tirreeeeeeeeeddddddddd.

and i juz spent the last couple of hours staring at a few math questions. forever getting stuck.im super inefficient.

haha.and olympics is nice to watch.and i found a new ouxiang.FENG TIAN WEI!!!haha i think she's super cool.and cute at the same time.and table tennis matches are nice to watch.esp when she's playing:D

and i juz realised.cockroaches can fly.and they can climb up vertical planes.so why do ppl scream and stand on chairs when they see a cockroach?hahaha:D

2008-07-16T07:15:00.000-07:00

haha.actually i dno why im blogging today.i dun realli haf much to say.juz feel like blogging.haha.

today was a same boring wed.weird tchers, boring lectures.but got nice frens and funny clsmates.haha.

oh today during econs lecture char suddenly sang a super weird and funny but super cute song. it goes like small circle small circle, one big circle.small circle small circle, one big circle.half a circle half a circle, one big circle.w,w,e,e,e.ok i know it sounds weird.it goes to the tune of ten little indian boys(is tht the title?)then while singing she drew a pig according to the lyrics.super cute!!!!haha.

oh and i realise i can act type letters in the gc.cos today lemuel was feeling wuliao during math tutorial then he showed me how to "play" with a gc.haha.super wuliao.but quite funny la.lol.

ok this is super wuliao.i dun even know why im blogging.cos i dun haf much to say.haha.

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2008-07-14T07:02:00.000-07:00

haha ok i shall blog about interesting things in the past wk(:

let me start wif a wuliao but quite fun thing i did wif xf and char last thurs.cos last thurs we had a v long recess break, cos pe ended v early.so we were feeling extremely bored.so we went to walk arnd the skool.played the old and spoilt piano for a while, then we spotted something on the pillar.then xf was like 'it's a snail!'haha.so the 3 of us who were extremely bored went to scrutinise the snail and comment on hw slow it's crawling.haha.then i forgot who suggested taking photos wif the snail,then tht slowly evolved... to these.

i cant believe i agreed to take.aaahhhh!! super gross. but quite funny.haha then when we were taking got quite a few ppl walk pass.then we were super malu-ed and we kept laughing.

haha.then fri was lemuel, our dear ct rep's bdae(: we went to get lemuel's present the day b4.and we bought this really cute frog pencil box and baby pooh soft toy for him.haha.a bit girly rite,but ivan said he liked pooh.and his pencil box is like breaking down.haha.then cherie bought him this bdae cake,watermelon shaped.super cool la.

then bryan smashed a piece of cake into his face!! his entire face had cake and cream.haha.super funny.and i think he liked our present!haha.and me and char and xf forced him to change his pencil box straight away.haha.as in we took his pencil box when he din notice then we went to put all his stationery into the new froggie pencil box.we din want to let him know at first,so we put it back into his bag when he wasnt looking.but then xf put it in the wrong compartment.hahaha.then he couldnt find it.then during gp lesson he kept looking.and he thot he lost both his old pencil box and the one we bought him.we felt so bad tht we made him so worried,but we still din want him to know it was us,so we wrote a note and passed to him.haha super funny.and i couldnt stop laughing.so in the end he found out.lol.and he's using the pencil box nw!haha.and he's v nice lor, he wrote this super long long winded email to thank the cls.oso smsed me to thank me.haha.

then finally we had cls farewell for mr tan on yesterday at hodge lodge in skool.we were juz there enjoying ourselves, play wii,ps3,sing karoke, play chess, camwhore.haha.

and our cls got quite a lot of good singers.like dillon.and of course quanwei.wah his voice is like..shen2.haha.and we prepared a lot of nice presents for mr tan.hope he will keep them and rmb us for a long long time(:i had a great time yesterday.my cls really gives me a homely and family feeling(:my cls rox:D

2008-07-09T05:59:00.000-07:00

all of life's 'what if's.i hate to think about it.but somehow it keeps on coming to mind.it hurts to think about it though.i mean there are so many possibilities in life.who knows wad would happen if another choice was made.sometimes i wonder if i would be happier i had made a different decision.i prob would be.like a lot happier.it really hurts to think about it.but then again i wouldnt haf met all these gd frens of mine nw.i guess it's juz a lot of gains and losses.hmm.

why is everyone so blessed except me.

2008-07-02T06:38:00.000-07:00

i nvr felt so stupid my entire life.i realise studying really isnt my thing.my cts were a big failure.and it's aggravated by the fact tht im in a smart cls.wad could haf been an average mark in an average cls became a 'last in cls' mark in my cls.sigh.so demoralised.boo.nt tht i dun like my cls.juz tht they are juz too smart for my good.lol.

i act like gg to skool.excluding the studying and stressful parts.haha.cos i haf nice and funny frens.and funny tchers.yayy.ok a bit mad today.wadeva.haha.

and im irritated wif nokia.cos my phone music player got prob.then i sent for repair alr.then come back alr still nt working.then all my data deleted for nth.boo.

stop being such hypocrites.

2008-06-26T04:49:00.000-07:00

yes.liberalisation.temporarily.haha.i totally lived in confinement for the past 2 and a half wks la.so tired.and sian.and drained.i nvr felt so stressed b4 leh.and i feel like i've never felt so stupid my entire life.haha.for the first time in the last wk i felt tht if i stepped out of the hse and got knocked down by a car it is a gd thing.then i dun need to go for exam.haha.but wadeva la.over liao.YAYY!!although only can relax for a short while.haha.

went out wif xf and char today after chem.ate at pasta then went to watch movie.xf convinced us to watch this jap movie called ten promises to my dog.at first i was a bit skeptical, but act it's v nice.haha.very very touching.first time i see almost the whole theatre crying.i also cry until my eyes felt swollen.haha.

and i bought vcds to watch!haha.cos ts having sale nw then some of the old shows selling for v cheap.i bought snow queen.cos char say it's v sad.and i like sad shows.haha.

yes.time to experience wad real living is.i shall go watch tv.no more books.no more notes.juz the tv and me.hahahahaha.

2008-06-02T10:55:00.000-07:00

haha yayy i finally changed my blogskin.it din take v long actually.haha.

2nd wk into the hols.and i haven done much constructive studying.ok.im gg to a gd gal and start mugging nao.N-A-O.haha

i watched the finale of the 9 o clock drama on tudou yesterday, cos i couldnt catch it on fri.it's super nice la.it's been a long time since i followed channel 8 dramas.cos they are juz too cheesy and boring.but this one's nice.and plot is gd.and the way they structure the show is oso gd.it's emo,yet it has a happy ending.and oso got many life philosophies.and got cute guys and pretty gals.wahahahaha.

act nowadays i oso dno wad drama to watch.taiwan dramas dun realli interest me much anymore.cos the plot's like all the same.and there's nth much on tv.except maybe dou niu yao bu yao which i catch occassionally.cos hebe's so chio.hahahaha.and all those no brainer variety shows.nt many nice songs nowadays oso.so there's act nth much for me to do at home other than mug.which may be a blessing in disguise actually.haha.

yayy cant wait to go hk.my mum said she's nt gg to restrict buying there.so i can shop all i want!!yayy.haha.ok i sound like a spendthrift.but i haven don proper shopping in like v long.and shopping does make me happy for some reason.like no need to buy a lot of things.juz looking at all pretty and cool stuff available can make me happy.ok im weird.haha.

ok shall get back to my boring mugging life:D

2008-06-01T23:40:00.000-07:00

im strong.im strong.im strong.

i heard a saying: life's like cutting onions, there will eventually be a piece which makes u tear. then why does my life seem to have extra?

im strong.but ur every action is breaking it down, piece by piece.but i will keep the wall up, because i am strong.

sometimes one tries so hard to keep up the facade, they forget the real them beneath it.

im strong.or at least i think i am.

2008-05-23T00:27:00.001-07:00

haha im in skool now, waiting for guitar camp to start.. so boring.

HOLIDAYS ARE FINALLY HERE!!yayy((: although it would be a rather depressing hol cos of cts rite after, but still having hols are better than not having.lol.ok, i promise myself that i will schedule my time in the hols properly, such that i haf time to catch on my extremely lagging skoolwork and be adequately prepared for cts, and at the same time haf my well deserved rest and play.haha:D

i hope guitar camp wont be too sian.i want a good start to my one month break.haha.

retardedness of the week:
1. me and char were supposed to get off at orchard.then we were so engrossed with laughing and toking we got off at dhoby ghaut thinking that it was orchard and only realised it when we went up the esclator.hahahahahahahahaha.

2. on the exact same day, me and char were rushing to the mrt, then almost stepped onto the down-riding esclator when we wanted to go up.so retarded la.hahahahahaha.

joke of the week:
1. i wanted to buy ice cream, double scoop. then i thot for super long then i decided i wanted chocolate and chocolate chip.then the auntie was like:'girl ah, actually the 2 flavours are about the same."then i burst out laughing..hahahaha.it was really funny and quite retarded at that time.

cool happening of the week:
1. someone i din expect to wave at me waved AND SMILED at me!!haha.as in i really expected to be dao-ed.lol.

and im sad.cos david archuleta lost american idol.boo.

how come time is passing so slowly??!?!!?!?!?!!!im like wasting my time here..every precious minute of my long waited holiday is slowing ticking away.. ok im being random.haha.

every smile u fake is so condescending counting on the scars u made.

2008-05-16T02:12:00.000-07:00

haha i haven blogged for a looooong time again.

yayy the weekend is here again..finally.all the lecture and tutorial tests have passed.but there's still one last hurdle b4 the hols.....GP COMMON TEST!!!!!dieeeeeee.im seriously gg to fail it.i dun feel prepared AT ALL.and i dun even know hw to make myself prepared.haha.wadeva.let nature take it's course.i used to the feeling of failure anyway.i've nt been doing well in skool nowadays.i juz failed my phy lecture test.sigh.i better improve for my common test.boooo.

I WANT HOLIDAYS NOW.LIKE NOW.LIKE RITE THIS MOMENT.haha im throwing tantrums like a small kid.i wna be a small kid again.it's funny how u always wanted to grow up quickly when u were small and after u haf grown up u wished that u would always stay in ur childhood.haha.

it takes 2 people to make a lie work.the one who tells it and the one who believes it.

2008-04-24T06:29:00.000-07:00

ok im officially stressed out.and im still blogging.haha.i so lagging in my skoolwork.i dun understand econs,math,phy,chem.basically everything.and i haven done the tutorials that im supposed to haf done.and nxt wk got phy spa and math tutorial test.and i haven started studying.and im gg to be out most of the time.haha.my life's screwed.

i think i better start learning time management and schedule planning.cos i realised i haf too many things on my plate nw and im worried i cant manage.im rarely at home nowadays.although im kind of happier cos im doing more meaningful things than stoning at home,but i realise it's high time i think about managing my skoolwork amidst everything else im doing.if nt,my grades will juz be gg down the drainXD

haha, i went to teach guitar at children's society today.it's my first session.although it's all the way at JURONG when i live in the east.haha.it's a GREAT sacrifice im making k.but it's a gd experience(:i enjoyed myself.the gals are all quite nice and they really do make an effort to learn.yea the pple i teaching are all gals.but then in btwn the lesson there were this 2 guys who came in.i ignored them at first.haha.but..youngs boys these days...one of them was like asking one of my students to ask me to give him my phone no.hahahaha.i was quite amused at first.i went to him then i found out he was only sec 2 la..wth.then the gal was saying he wants to jio me and bla.i was like dotz...then i joked arnd wif him i said pls im too old for u.i asked to him guess hw old am i.then he said sec 5.hahaha.actually quite accurate.the age part la.then after tht i juz ignored him.but then he kept on asking and irritating me and so i ALMOST gave him my no.but luckily i was sane enough nt to.i gave him reynard's no instead.haha.cos i was holding his phone ready to key in the no alr, then i realised im really stupid if i really gave him my no, so i stared at reynard to ask for help.so i thot i will juz key in reynard's no instead.reynard said ok so i really used his no.haha.i dno whether the boy really believed tht was my no or nt.cos after tht he called the no i think, and i pretended tht my phone was really ringing and tht i was juz ignoring his call.hahahahaha.i was quite amused la.seriously young boys nowadays......wonder if i will see him again nxt wk.lol.i dun really want to.after he find out i gave him a 'fake' no then he gang up and get back at me.lol.

but i really like the cip.if it was in pasir ris i would go everyday.hahaha:D

2008-04-19T07:13:00.000-07:00

haha due to popular demand, im updating my blog again.

actually i dno wad to blog about.cos my life's kinda boring nowadays.haha.except i passed my 2.4 on fri!!haha.i thot i wasnt gg to make it k, cos at the 3rd rnd i heard mr siva reading my timing as 10 min plus, then i was like wth.but i think i heard wrongly.lol.cos i made it back in miracle timing.i wanted to stop ok, cos i felt like dying.but i din.and im glad i din(:

oh.i forgot.guitar concert.haha.i like having concerts.it's quite exciting.i din want concert to end lor.but i think concert went quite well.and thanku to everyone who came down to support me!and for the flowers and gifts((: u guys rock.

and i realised today why i like chinese songs so much.i like eng songs oso la.but i realised today most chinese songs haf beautiful lyrics.like really really nice and touching and cool lyrics.some tht can even totally relate to ur feelings.yayy music rox.haha.

i muz nt let my heart rule over my head.or shud i?

2008-04-06T03:51:00.000-07:00

haha, i realise pple actually read my blog.so i shall be more motivated to update.lol.

i heard a story today.i think it's really really good.so i shall share it.haha:D
Long long ago, there was an old donkey who fell into a well.then it was struggling and trying very hard to climb out but it couldnt. then the farmer walked past and heard funny noises coming out from the well so he went to look.then he realised tht the donkey was inside the well.but it was very difficult to get the donkey out, so he thought 'since the donkey's alr so old, i shant waste effort trying to save it. i shall juz throw dirt in the well and bury it alive.'(so bad rite..poor donkey.)so he started shoveling dirt into the well.the dirt fell on the donkey, but the donkey shook the dirt off its body, and the dirt fell to the bottom of the well.so everytime the farmer threw dirt at it,the donkey shook it off and the dirt fell to the bottom of the well, allowing the donkey to step up on the dirt.soon, the level of dirt began to rise, allowing the donkey to step out of the well easily.

haha.cool story rite.but i dno how to tell properly.but u all get the rough idea la.so it shows in life rite, no matter how much 'dirt' people throw at you, you should juz shake it off, and you would be able to rise up to a higher level.motivational rite??haha.

and i realised today tht james' nails are v nice.like the shape and everything is v nice la.and he nv even file.makes his hand look gay though.lol.but then if cut off v wasted,cos it's really v nice.haha.then he keep saying he shud go shoot those hand adverts.lol.actually i think so too.hahahaha:D

then went to eat ben and jerry's today.and joanna had to tell me tht ben and jerry's ice cream contains the most fat and calories out of all the diff brands of ice cream.lol.thanks lor.haha and james was doing magic tricks, trying to impress us.umm. or shud i say TRYING to do.lol.he's quite lousy lor.haha dam lame.

tmr got school again.sian.boo.

2008-04-04T08:37:00.000-07:00

haha:D i said i will blog everytime char tags.so im blogging nw.haha.cos neglecting blogs is a v bad thing.a v bad thing indeed.

today was a normal day at skool.as usual.and i got back phy lecture test today.and i passed!!haha:D contented liao.i thot i would fail.and i find it v difficult to pay attention during lectures nowadays.my mind would juz wander to another place.i would juz stone at the tcher.and copy down wadeva's nt on my notes.but nth goes in.this is v bad.this has got to stop.ok.ive decided.i shall be mugger frm nw on.yes.MUGGERS RULE!

then i went j8 wif char to pass john and jj tix and buy yami yogurt.yayy yami yogurt rox.haha at first i thot it was 'yummy yogurt',nt 'yami yogurt'.lol.but their yogurt realli nice.juz tht a bit cheat.cos they give u this gigantic cup wif huge slices of fruits,but then the yogurt onli got a bit.so i was under the false impression tht it was a huge portion.lol.

then went home bathe then went cg.haha.today after cg on the bus james was telling weird jokes which i thot was quite funny.but apparently the rest dun think so.lol.ok im juz easily amused.i think i need to laugh more.laughing is good((: and nxt time i dun wan to take bus anymore.cos i thot got direct bus shud b faster.but then the bus took so long to come.then i was stoning at the interchange.lol.nxt time i shall juz take train:D

ok.this concludes one of the days in marjorie's 'interesting' life.tmr got guitar prac!! at 8..so early..AND I STILL CNT PLAY THE STRUMMING PART IN GRANADA!!D: sigh.im so lousy.and concert's in 2wks.i beta nt malu myself.

2008-03-21T06:36:00.000-07:00

haha, i realised i like gg out. like im an outside kid(: like i feel a million times happier when im outside.lol.

feeling really bored at home nowadays. like i dno wad to do wif myself when im at home. yeayea i know do work, but then when i dun feel like doing work then i dno wad do alr. dun haf nice dramas to watch, dun haf fun stuff to do online. i wonder, how people spend their time at home other than doing work.lol.

feel tired very easily nowadays oso. like i need a lot of slp. like yesterday i was juz lying down on my bed, then i fell asleep alr. at 9 plus.lol. super early la. ohno, im becoming a pig.haha:D

oh and i learnt some korean today.haha, quite cool la, cos i met some frens frm korea, then they taught me some korean. i learnt how to intro myself and some other random words.lol.

today doesnt feel like a fri.which is a good thing(: means im having fun:Dhaha. ok, i know wad i can do alr, i can go search for a new blogskin.haha:D cos apparently this skin cnt work on mozilla firefox and apple computers.lol.

2008-03-13T06:57:00.000-07:00

conclusion: crying is really very tiring. it seriously drains all the energy out of u.

ok, i cried really hard today. over something maybe u all will think is stupid to cry for.

cos today's my last piano cls of my entire life. if my exam goes well. so i was super emo about it. like when i step out of my tcher's hse then i juz started crying and crying and crying. like really really hard. haha:D i think i looked stupid. then somemore it was raining. then i din haf umbrella.so i was like crying in the rain. quite drama. haha:D

ok, i know it's a stupid thing to cry over. but it's juz i've been seeing my tcher for the past 10 yrs!!!!!! i think i will really really miss her. nw i really know wad it means to say u wont know hw something is so precious to you until u dun haf it anymore. ohno, i feel like crying again.

anyway, it's so stupid lor, i so emo about it, then after i fail my exam. lol. then i will still see her. haha:D dumb. wadeva.

2008-03-08T07:24:00.000-08:00

oops, i realised i haf neglected my poor blog for a long long time. life's busy nowadays. and sometimes oso dun really feel like blogging. lol.

march hols. i juz wna rest and relax. but something's weighing on my mind. PIANO EXAM!!!!!! 17th march. doomsday. this is screwing up my entire hols. !!!!!!!!!!!

life's so complicated and messed up nowadays. lol. maybe it's juz me. wadeva. haha.

aahh, why does my post sound so emo?! maybe cos im feeling emo. hah.

i think im gg mad. i shall juz stop here. haha.

2008-01-23T06:29:00.000-08:00

im so slacker today. i cnt stand myself. reached home at 5 plus 6, then juz decided to slack. at first only wanted to 'rest' for a while, but then spontaneously decided tht i wna watch heroes, so i did, and i ended up watching for the entire evening. so nw im currently at the 4th disc, which leaves me wif the final 4 or 5 eps of season 1. ok maybe the world finish watching season 1 alr. haha:D the show is super nice, quite a fresh storyline(: but today while watching i suddenly burst into tears. okok, im nt siao, it's bcos of the show. as in for those who watched, there was this really touching part when claire bennet's father's company or sumthing wanted to take claire away, then in order to protect her, her father sacrificed himself by asking the haitian guy to shoot him and take away his memories. omg, i juz felt the tears coming while watching tht part la, so i juz started crying and crying. haha, if u imagine the whole situation it's quite funny, cos i was watching on my own in my parents' room, so u cn juz imagine this solitary gal bursting into tears and crying and crying while staring at the tv screen. then juz when i was calming down and wiping my tears then my maid came in and asked me to go dinner. haha, so anti-climax. but i rarely cry when watching shows, i only cry at like those touching family relationship thingy, nt so much of the lovey dovey stuff like those i love you but i cnt be wif u. haha:D i rmb the last time i really cried while watching drama was when i watched why why love on youtube, the part where one guy wanted to donate some organ or wad to his brother to save his brother's life, but at the risk of his own life cos he has some heart prob oso. super touching oso. but i din really cry v hard tht time, juz tearing only. but tht time was super funny, cos i watching while trying to do ss notes or something. so i was tearing, watching, exclaiming and trying to study at the same time. lolx:D

school today was tiring. again. cos i had lessons straight frm morn to like 125 w/0 break like yesterday. unbearable la. hungry and tired and sian all plus together. then somemore the assembly at the end of the day drag until 2. wah... then had to rush through lunch cos gt guitar orientation at 230.

guitar orientation was quite wu liao. they juz tok to us about some admin stuff and we ended up playing whacko and double whacko the entire session. dots la. haha:D

o lvl results tmrw. to all my frens who took o lvls: u all sure will do well one!! juz go collect wif confidence and be happy after tht cos u all know tht ur hard work has paid off(:

2008-01-22T06:30:00.000-08:00

yayy, the optimistic me is back(: i hope. haha:D thanks to a few pple, like qh who is always there for me to tok to, and jj who told me lame jokes to make me laugh and forget my emo-ness. haha:D

today was an ok day. nononono!!! tiring day i mean. lessons straight frm morn to like 1 plus. NO BREAK!!! starving to death la.. civics, then 3 lectures IN A ROW, then chem tutorial. then had 2 hr break, feeling bored and half our cls went library to mug (sigh.), so the rest of us went to play HIDE AND SEEK!! haha, so lame la. then after tht sat down and talked. then after the break still got 2 blks of lesson, gp and math. i was so tired during gp la, i couldnt pay attention at all.

then after skool met alicia, so went to eat tako pachi at j8 together. then on the way home my train was delayed for quite a while la, cos apparently there was another train broke down at novena or sumting liddat. so they made us alight at toa payoh and wait. but ok la, din wait v long. juz tht the train keep stopping at some stations for a v long time, prob to like delay..haha:D

then rush home, rest a while, then muz rush out again for guitar cls alr. but i really enjoy gg for guitar cls(: i like my tcher. and i like to know tht im learning more and more things in juz half an hour(:

reach home. exhausted. so juz slack and watch tv and came online. tht's it. i nvr do work at all today. wadeva la. haha:D dun haf stuff need to complete by tmrw(:

and i decided to give up on my jazz auds. i really dno hw to play. since i alr got into guitar then ok lor(:

realised today tht it's the really really simple things tht make me really happy. im nt asking for a lot. really.

2008-01-17T05:26:00.001-08:00

haha, juz realised i haven blogged for v long again. i've decided to give up blogging on wad i did in the hols, cos it's juz gg to take forever.

school life's starting to kick in. i guess im starting to get used jc life alr. ok, maybe nt. i dno. i think i need more time.

feeling quite emo nowadays. bcos of many many diff things i guess. it's like suddenly im made to face many realities, and suddenly losing confidence in the stuff i used to haf confidence in. feeling a bit unwanted, a bit useless. a bit here, a bit there. it's like i dno wad's gd about me anymore. im trying really really hard, but somehow it doesnt seem to work. and im smiling when i actually feel like crying, laughing when i dun really feel laughing. juz so i dun affect those arnd me. ok, i sound really depressed. OPTIMISM. THINK OPTIMISM.

2007-12-25T05:22:00.000-08:00

ahhh!! i've got so many things to blog about.. xing guang bang, bdae, hws chalet, south africa holiday,xmas.. that's the result of procrastinating. actually nt really la, cos i've nvr spent much time at home in the month of dec. stuff after stuff. then before i know it, it's almost over and school's reopening. so this post is expected to be loooooooooooooooong.

ok let's start with xing guang bang. xing guang bang finally came to spore!!! ok i know it's a bit late to get all excited about this nw.. but they did come the day b4 my bdae!! haha:D actually went out wif yu and qh on tt day to celebrate my bdae(: we were supposed to meet at 11 lor, then qh was late for 2 hrs!! she called yu and said she was at chinatown and im like huh?! she go chinatown so early in the morn for wad?! haha:D but she's totally forgiven, cos i found out she went there to get photos as my bdae prezzie(: she's so sweet leh, i was so touched by her photos, esp some really special ones(: really big thankyou for her effort, cos it really required lotsa patience to search for those pix.. i din even know of the existence of a couple of pix leh.. haha:D and thanks to simin and yu too for the shirt(: luvyas<3

ok, so we had lunch a toked for a bit, then we walked arnd bugis deciding wad to do (and at the same time observe the rate of the lengthening of the queue for xing guang bang :P) we went to take neos then finally decided that we really din know wad to do, so we kiasu kiasu went to start queueing. at 2 plus leh!!! that's like 5 hrs b4. i nvr knew i could be so kiasu. i was like xin1 yang3 yang3, cos when we were walking arnd, the queue was still in the yellow barrier thingy, AND IT WAS LENGTHENING. so i said at least 3 or 4 times "aye, it's still in the yellow thing leh!!" haha:D but when we started queueing it was slightly outside the yellow barrier alr, and it started raining. then there was shelter within the yellow thing. so we were like aiyah.. but then the rain stopped and the floor slowly dried, so lucky us(: so while waiting we were laughing and joking and toking about "interesting" stuff. haha:D oh, then it started raining again, this time quite heavily, so they managed to make the pple within the barrier squeeze a little, so we managed to get within the barrier and within the sheltered area(: yayyness. hey first time im within the yellow barrier for any of the autograph sessions i've been to leh.. so happy(: then about 4 plus shara shuna came and we were getting thirsty, so i kindly offered to go buy drinks(: and shun bian go say hello(: so i toked to them for a while, and thank you for ur lovely present! it's really pretty(: then after i finished buying the drinks i tried to squeeze past the queue to get to yu and qh. then pple started staring at me leh.. i was so paiseh, although i knew that i wasnt cutting queue or wad. then some person even went OI! i was so paisehed and so shocked, i din know wad to do, so i juz kept saying sry and explaining tht my frens were in front. then in the end she juz glared at me and asked to me go. phew.. im totally nt doing tt again. so scary.

then after hrs, xing guang bang finally came!! haha:D they are totally the best live singers i've ever known la. and they totally know how to get the atmosphere going.oh,i was so nervous when i went up to shake their hands la.. haha:D as usual. at first me and qh were discussing to use which hand to shake their hand, so i decided to use my right. but when i went up i totally din think of which hand to use. i cant even rmb which hand i used. i juz know tt they were all so friendly and nice(: ok, so at the end of the day every single muscle was aching, but it was worth it!! haha:D i think they din finish signing, so luckily we queued early, if nti wont have got my signature! lolx. but i discovered a logical logic, pple who queue early will get their signature early, pple who queue late will get their signature late, so it's juz a matter of waiting at the start or at the end, so actually the queueing time for pple will be about the same!! haha:D

nxt, my bdae bbq!! haha:D i finally turned sixteen. like FINALLY. my parents organised a bdae bbq for me this yr, to make up for nt celebrating my bdae last yr:D invited relatives and my mum's nurses and some of my mum's friends whose children i know as well(: din invite my school friends or other friends, cos i thought relatives and friends dun really click, so i dun wan anyone to feel left out, so i decided to celebrate my bdae wif my friends separately on my own(:hehe, so tt evening i was busy bbqing food to entertain guests(:my hse was so crowded, with little children running arnd(: haha, but they were all really cute.

my lovely mummy and daddy and grandma<333

a really really cute boyboy

happy bdae to me!!

my mum's nurse

another cute boy

my cousin(:

yayy, so i had a great bdae, and thanks to everyone who rmbed and wished me and gave me nice gifts!! a big thank to charmaine, tiddy, jingyi, rachel, tan xin yi, alicia, hongchuan, yongzhu, yuxuan, shuna, shara, yinmin, qian hui, anzie, sharon, weihan, simin, weepeng, jiajun, donovan, xiangjing, chingsiang, fuxing, and everyone who came to my party(: sry if i missed anyone out, u know i juz grew older, memory nt so gd liaoXD

annual pri skool chalet.ok, i shall nt go into details of wad happened cos someone has alr gave such a detailed account. i shall juz blog about some interesting stuff and my thoughts(: one of the most memorable part is of course their bdae surprise for me!! haha:D really really thank you to everyone for making a great effort in planning this for me!! i really really appreciate it. haha:D the funniest part was the waiting for the ice to melt part. cos i went to the washroom, then when i came back everyone was done eating so i thought we were leaving, but then apparently xj still had drinks so the whole table of us were expected to wait for him to finish drinking. then when he did and i thought we really could go alr, then they guys were like hafta wait for the ice to melt, then i was like huh?! by then i knew there was something fishy gg on, and i was trying nt to laugh. then when we finally got back to the chalet then everything was like dark and suddenly they juz started singing happy bdae for me(: i was like sort of lost for words and din know hw to react. haha:D but u all are really very sweet(: thanks a lot and a lot and a lot(:

but one thing was i was feeling really full tt day, cos tt morn i was made to eat 2 slices of cake for breakfast, one butter cake and one of my leftover bdae cake from the previous day. then somemore we juz had dinner. so i couldnt really fully enjoy the cake. somemore they gave me such a HUGE piece. the cake is really really good ok, it's like one of the best choc cakes i haf ever tasted, but i was juz feeling so full, that towards the end i looked like i was forcing it down my throat, but really it was very nice(: and i had to make myself finish it, if nt it's so bad to all of u who made an effort to buy it. and i oso dno how it became a penalty thingy. haha:D

oh and another interesting part was when me and yu knocked out while TRYING to watch simpsons. but seriously when i haven slept for one entire day and night, watching this type of movie is like giving me slping pills. i really was trying to pay attention ok, but my vision was like gradually becoming blur and my head became like super heavy, then i saw yu was also like almost cnt take it alr. then when she lean on me then i juz gave up and lean on her and knocked out too. i cant believe i fell asleep in tt position ok.. then after tt they asked us to lie down and slp. at first i kept laughing to myself, cos it's like quite funny everyone surrounding us doing something and we are slping in the middle of all the activities. lolx:D but i eventually fell asleep la, and only woke up when there was this camera flash. tt was 2 hrs later.the gals took a photo wif me and yu slping leh.. so weird.

haha, then when we were spamming photos, i was still in the semi conscious "gonggong" state. but luckily the photos turned out nice la(:

oh then they were trying to make me take a photo by myself cos i was the onli one frm rgs, but i refused cos dun u think it's so weird to take a photo on ur own when everyone else is taking photos together?!?! so i took one wif qh, cos we were both the onli ones.but they still cropped the photo.. hhmph.

yup, the rest of the time we spent playing card games, biking, bbqing, walking along the beach..

i think this yr's gathering was really really gd, cos everyone tried to open up and interact. cos like our cls used to haf this boys one side gals one side thing, nt tht there isnt anymore nw, but at least everyone's having fun playing and doing stuff together(: i think it's really gd.im sure everyone had fun despite the lack of slp:D and i oso think it's really really gd that our cls is so bonded in the sense tt we still bother to meet up after so many yrs. many of my other frens haf alr lost touch wif their pri school clsmates. we shud keep this spirit burning and haf many many more cls gatherings!!! haha:D 6a is really the best cls i could ever hope for to be in(: yayy 6a'03 rox!!

ok, i realise im nvr gg to finish blogging about everything today, so im gg to continue tmrw(: haha:D this is onli half of wad i want to blog about. sigh.. this teaches us a big lesson of "the effects of procrastination". haha:D

oh!! and i almost forgot. MERRY XMAS EVERYONE!!

2007-11-28T02:42:00.000-08:00

came back frm chalet wif hws gals ytd, like passed v fast.. feeling bored again XD

yayy, about the chalet, we met on mon morn at 1030.. supposedly. haha:D everyone was late, except ME and qh. once i reached, feeling proud that i was on time cos i expected myself to be late, qh was gg on about hw long she waited. then i was like it's nt even 1030 yet. then she explained that she wanted to make up for always being late, so she came 20 min early, but in the end.. everybody else was late. haha:D shihui came shortly after me, then there was a loooong wait b4 anyone else came. wh came, then she thought that we were supposed to meet at 1045 nt 1030. so qh went on and on about hw she called everyone and specially reminded them to come on time, then wh somemore misunderstood. finally cy and ra and yu came(:

so we went to take the bus to downtown east. we blindly followed our wonderful guide qh and ended up taking the wrong bus. but luckily that bus oso goes to downtown east, juz that it's a longer walk i think.

then we went to ESCAPE! haha, it's been at least a year since i last stepped in there. u haf to admit that it's really really small and there's really nt many things to play in there. on top of that 3 nice rides were closed for maintainence that day... sad. so we missed out on the pirate ship, rainbow and revolution.

so we played almost everything except the kiddy rides and the inverter, cos everyone was too scared to go with me. haha:D im the brave one here, together with ra. ra's my new idol kae, cos she was so brave, everything oso nt scared(: muz learn from her. the only ride i really was afraid of was wet and wild. we went twice. the first time i was really really scared, so in the middle of the ride i kept talking to yu and telling her i scared i was. haha:D then during the first short drop actually i wanted to scream, but i thought that it was too embarrassing and the pple queuing would laugh at me, so i beared with it and forced my mouth shut. but for the second drop i screamed and screamed , cos the drop seemed so loooooong. i kept saying in my heart that i will end in a second, but i really felt like a looooong drop. and of course i kept my eyes closed XD qh actually could open her eyes.haha. then the second time i went with qh. by that time the sky looked really really dark, and as soon as we set off it started raining. so it got really cold and gloomy and SCARY!!! me and qh kept on praying that it will nt start raining heavily until we finished the ride, cos the drop will be doubly scary if it was raining heavily. AND IT MAY BECOME DANGEROUS!! the rain got heavier and heavier kae, but lucky for us it only became really heavy when we got off. then we were really SOAKED AND WET. bcos of wet and wild AND the rain. so we tried to dry off in the toilet. din work. haha:D

after the first time we played wet and wild we went to play bumper boats, cos we were alr wet. haha, we all ganged up against cy. then i really embarrased myself there leh. when the guy was trying to remove the chain frm the boat, i accidentally pressed the squirt button, so i squirted water right into his face!!!! i was so embarassed i din dare to look at him leh. i think i said at least 7 sorrys. but luckily he was nice about it la. then when i was about to get off, the woman was trying to help me off, then i think i pulled her too hard, she almost lost her balance. haha, luckily she was nice about it too. i think most of the personnel there were really nice and friendly that day(:the flipper guy oso v friendly to us(:

we lunched at the food court. then my shorts were dripping wet, so when i sat down, there was this 'squish' feeling and i totally wet the seat. hahaXD

then we took photos at escape entrance, with courtesy of shihui and weihan's cam(:

haha, we were trying to make funny faces while no one was staring(:

after that we went to collect bbq food and start the bbq. we started really early, cos we din want to finish too late. (and juz in case we took a really looong time to get the fire started, cos we were all inexperienced fire startersXD) i rmb hw sm arranged the charcoal to start the fire last time, so we followed. we had a really neat arrangement(:

then after we started cooking we realised the fire wasnt hot enough, so we had to sort of 'restart' the fire. haha:D then fire became really hot!! yayy(: but the first few satays were badly charred. haha:D

we had fun bbqing and eating at the same time(:

when we were almost done bbqing, we sat down to play games to try to finish the food(: we played zhong ji mi ma and guang zhou chao mian(: i was quite gd at guang zhou chao mian(: but cy and wh and shihui kept losing, so i think they finsihed most of the foodXD

while we were eating and playing there were all sorts of creatures coming to join in the fun XP

plus mosquitoes and spiders and other insectsXP

so after that we cleared up and went back to the room and started playing card games and more card games. we were playing bridge, 2 pple together cos we had too many pple. we took so long to finish one game!! cos everyone will start discussing and be indecisive. haha:D so i concluded that we shud nvr play bridge in pairs(: but that nite i was really unlucky, cos i kept losing and losing. whoever partnered me will lose, except maybe i won a few games with qh(:

so that nite we juz played cards, uno and toked the whole night. we slept at 630!!! but i wasnt really tired, cos i think i sleep too much nowadays, haha:D but one obvious sign of nt slping, DARK RINGS. i finally got rid of them b4 this by waking up later everyday, but.. wasted effort. muz start slping more againXD

so the nxt day we checked out and went to my hse to play. b4 leaving we took photos again(: i realised photos are very impt to keep track of precious memories, so my cam goes everywhere with me(:

2007-11-22T03:28:00.000-08:00

i just realised everyone's growing up except me): lolx. chloe's bdae was 2 days ago, qianhui's was 2 wks ago. everyone's sixteen except me. okok, nt that it's a big deal. maybe it's juz me, but i feel that december babies dun haf bdaes that are as much fun as babies in the other months. cos at other times they haf all their friends at school arnd them on their bdaes. i always haf the impression that they haf more exciting bdaes. haha:D is exciting the correct word to use?

btw is it true that as someone grows older and older, bdaes become less important days? maybe nt. i hope nt. haha:D i still rmb when i was younger, my bdae was always one of the most fun days of the year, cos i will haf this large party, and i will haf many many friends and relatives celebrating my bdae with me, with a huge birthday cake, balloons, goody bags, and many many presents. haha:D okok, i know bdaes are nt juz about these. i was young and small, ok!! haha:D

so as i grow older, these things are nt part of my bdae anymore. duh rite, haha, im a matured teenage girl, i dun need goody bags anymore XD i tend to spend quieter bdaes. last yr i spent it in shanghai. nt specially arranged la, juz happened to coincide.

i think the best thing about bdaes is the nice feeling u get when u realise u haf friends remembering ur bdae, even pple whom u havent spoken to for a long time. i always feel very happy when i receive bdae msgs, no matter hw simple they are. to me, it signifies that u make a difference to their lives, that's why they bother to rmb ur bdae(: that's wad it means to me onli la. haha:D

haha, the more i write the more i realise this post doesnt flow. ok i shall stop soon. it's juz what suddenly came to mind 2 days ago, when i wished chloe happy bdae.

btw, today when i was walking along the road, i saw this little boy, nt very old i think about 7 or 8 yrs old, holding his little sister's hand when he was walking, and like making sure his sister is properly taken care of. the first thing that came to mind was: SO SWEET!!!!! i want an older brother too!!!

haha, that's what im talking about when i tell my friends hw nice it is to haf an older brother. someone who is ur generation whom u can seek advice from when u haf prob and someone who will always try to take care of u cos u are his little sister. i mean to me when the older brother really tries and wants to take gd care of his sister, it's a really great relationship(: sobs.. i want an older brother too.. haha, but a bit late ah.. to all the pple out there who haf older brothers(actually older sisters oso): U ARE LUCKY PPLE! TREASURE THE RELATIONSHIP! (:

2007-11-15T23:30:00.000-08:00

been wanting to blog about this but has been procrastinating..FAM'07!!! haha, like our theme "dazzle", everyone was dazzling that nite!! ok let me start from the top(:

the day started when i went to zhu to do hair and make up. then when they were done, my first reaction was "oh no i look overdone oh no the whole world is gg to stare". seriously, i din recognise myself kae. i was like totally different. and zhu looked so chio!! haha:D

then we reached meritus mandarin. that was when i started to relax and not be so uptight about how "over" i looked. cos i realised everybody was liddat too!! haha:D and EVERYBODY was dazzling. and im not exaggerating. so we hung outside to ballroom to talk and admire how beautiful everyone was(:

see, everyone was gorgeous rite? haha, i rmb everyone was so busy taking pics we kept ignoring the sec3s who were frantically asking us to go in and take our seats cos we were running late. sorry!!

yayy, then after that we finally went in to sit down.

mrs tan gave a speech

followed by our gorgeous head prefect xiner

then... dinner was served!!

haha:D the food was not bad at all! except we din get like sharks fin la. lolx.

so in the midst of dinner, we had performances and of course our FAM'07 pageant!! haha:D the representative for our class was our beautiful class chair, amanda!!

the one on the extreme left(:

all the 16 reps

haha, that nite nobody was eating properly, cos we were so busy enjoying the performances and trying to make full use of the photo-taking sessions in between(:

my pretty frens again(:

mr ow where u looking ah?!

amanda's performance!! she did something called body beat boxing i think. like making rhythms using pure body parts and table or chair i think. haha;D not v sure either.

so zai!!

so cool!!

then it was the q&a session for the pageant(:

finally the awards presentation(: amanda din win ms fam'07, but everybody would definitely agree that she couldn't have been better(:

oops couldnt get a gd pic. amanda won ms dazzle!! :D

my beautiful classmates!!

yayy(: then after the dinner the fun hadn't ended, cos batch07 planned a surprise birthday thingy for nicole in the hotel rm after prom(: okok, it was supposed to be a surprise, but i guess.. then i think we were really quite dumb, we actually forgot the candles!! haha:D so nicole had to blow out imaginary flames(:

yayy, our batch mirror shot!! (after many countless failed attempts at trying to use the timer on the cam to take a shot XD)

i thoroughly enjoyed fam, and seeing all my frens looking so different from the normal blue uniforms and yellow name tags(: prom is really the last time rgs batch07s gather together as rgs sec 4s.. i will miss rgs and everyone who has made a difference in my life in rgs!!

Bidding official goodbyes to RGS..

2007-11-01T23:03:00.000-07:00

finally, after all the slogging and mugging, i haf come to the end of my sec 4 life. had farewell assembly today. this year's extra special, cos other than saying goodbye to the sec 4s, we are saying goodbye to mrs deborah tan, our sweetest cutest, most beloved beloved principal as well.

felt super emo today. haha:D i think everyone will be. i mean i know some pple will say it's stupid to feel so emo, cos we will be seeing each other again (at least most of us) nxt year. but i still feel that it's quite sad that we are leaving rgs alr. after all, the environment will change, people will change.

i think im very contradictory. cos in the past years' farewell assembly, everytime we say bye bye to the sec 4s, i will be like "is my turn going to come soon?" there's this feeling of like "hey i cant wait to graduate and move on to rj and grow up". but now im like "noooooo, im growing up too fast. i dun want to move on so quickly and leave all the caring tchers and all the nitty gritty things of rgs behind". this entire year i haf been counting all the last things i will do in rgs, like my last swim carn, my last racial harmony day, my last eya, my last fried food day... there's juz too many!!! haha:D i still rmb last wk when we had our last fried food day, everybody was insisting that we should buy all the various fried food from the diff stalls and eat them for the last time in our rgs lives. there's juz so many things i cant bear to leave behind.

it's funny how sometimes u only learn how to notice and cherish things when u are about to lose them. it always happens to me. too many times. i only realise how impt some things are to me juz when im about to leave them behind. sad rite? i shud improve on this weakness of mine. muz learn to live everyday as if it's my last and cherish everything and everyone while i still haf the chance(: a couple of days ago, anzie was telling me "hey did u ever notice this thing along the corridor and that tile at the foyer" and stuff like that. i was surprised throughout all my 4 years in rgs, i nvr ever notice these little things that i pass by everyday. it's only when im about to leave that i realised how beautiful and unique these things are.

oh and another thing that makes the day even more emo for me: saying goodbye to mrs tan. we had this surprise farewell concert for her today(: i think our school's v/principals and teachers and students are all very sweet. the whole school put in a 110% effort into making mrs tan's last day in rgs a very memorable one. and mrs tan is one of the best principals ever!! im so glad she din leave last yr like she was supposed to at first. i hope she will nvr ever forget us!! :D the whole school showered her with well wishes, gifts, tokens today(: while listening to her make her last speech, i almost felt like crying kaes. but i din la, must control(: i was telling myself if mrs tan was touched to tears then i will cry too. haha, but she din (at least i think she din watching her frm far far away), so i din too(:

thank you to all the teachers, principals, non teaching staff, canteen vendors, greenman, security guards, gardener for making my 4 years in rgs such a comfortable and memorable one! thank you principals for always taking care of our welfare and bringing the school to greater heights! thank you teachers for showering us with tender loving care and concern, despite the many times that we made u angry and disappointed. thank you for putting up with all our nonsense and imparting to us all the useful knowledge that will carry us very far in our future endeavours. thank you non teaching staff for always lending us a helping hand. thank you canteen vendors for whipping up such delicious cuisines to fill our empty stomachs. thank you greenman for maintaining a clean and conducive environment for us to study in. thank you security guards for ensuring that we will definitely feel safe and sound while in the school compounds. thank you gardener for keeping our school clean and green!! without every single one of u i think i would nvr ever enjoy coming to school(:

finally, a very very big thank you to all my wonderful schoolmates, classmates, cca mates, batch mates, table mates!! thank you anzie and char and su for listening to my problems and cheering me up when im feeling down. thank you yongzhu for being such a cute and funny and kind friend and vicechairperson, and always telling me lame jokes to make me laugh. thank you sharon for always putting up with my nonsense and being such a helpful tablemate! thank you hongchuan for being such a wise and funny friend and being always able to solve my problems for me. thank you 402 for being such a caring and friendly class, always trying to include everybody in all the activities and many other kind gestures. thank you everyone for always being there for me!! may we always be good friends forever, no matter how our paths diverge!!

i will move on, meet new friends, build new relationships, but these wonderful memories will always be etched deeply in my heart, giving me support and bringing a smile to my face.

oh here's my graduation ring! the school's so sweet, somemore package until so nice for us(:

2007-10-17T05:40:00.000-07:00

ok, i realised i haven blogged for a long time again.. haha:D feeling very tired nowadays.. is it bcos options end v late? or issit bcos there's something wrong with me. hahaXD juz like nowadays i keep feeling like i wna fall asleep during my options class, then when i come home i feel so lethargic i dun feel like doing anything (and that's one of the reason i haf not been doing anything productive for the past 2 wks). i din use to be liddat lehz.. last time i wont feel sleepy until it's time for bed. but now, like for example the other day, i juz fell asleep for 3 hrs in the evening, then at night i slept frm 11 to 930 the nxt morn,and i STILL felt sleepy. then the another day after practising piano i juz felt so tired suddenly, like all the energy was being drained out of me. seriously, i din even feel like moving. sigh.. old alr..

ohya! i changed my glasses(: cos i broke my old one. how clumsy can i be rite? i juz snapped like that ok.. haha:D so i had to go blind for a day. my new glasses are purple, some pple say i look more intellectual with my new glasses. lolx:D

raining outside nw.. really heavily.. nowadays always liddat, suddenly haf heavy rain. but i like it to rain at night, can sleep very comfortably(: ok. random.

oh o levels gg to start! jiayou to all my frens who are taking the olevels! u all sure can ace it one!! juz try your best and it will be over pretty soon!! :D

2007-09-14T02:35:00.001-07:00

survived another week at school. ok, this week was quite slack, except for the fact that we had math test and philosophy test. math test. dun wanna tok about it.

my options started this week. I CANT BELIEVE I GOT PUT IN SOME POETRY CLASS!! do i look like i can write poetry?!? haha:D then i got my pharmaceutical chemistry. quite interesting, except for the fact that i got a certain chem tcher again. deconstructing media forms. starts nxt wk. the teacher's my rs mentor. my options dun sound v interesting, and the timetable's so unfair to me. like most pple haf at least one free day w/o options, means they can go home after 1030, but i dun haf.. D: cos like now we haf main lessons like math, chi, pe and philo in the morn, then after recess our options start. i haf options every single day, and they all end at 4, except on wed, which is at 6. then there's a lot of time between after the main lessons and my options, cos most of my options start at 130 or 2. the past 2 days i spent it toking to frens about stuff. toked quite a lot. got a lot of things off my chest. haha:D life nw is so much more relaxed i think, only left wif math and chinese to worry about.

for cle today we had some teachers from rjc come to give us a talk. at first i thought it was about subject combis in jc, but i realised when we reached the hall it was about getting used to a co-ed school. haha:D we all were quite amused. the teacher was saying telling us about how to adapt to a new school env with guys, like how to communicate, make friends, not to give the opp sex the wrong idea, the diff ways guys and gals get along and communicate. lolx. we thought it was quite common sense.

sometimes i think im very zi4 xiang1 mao2 dun4. when im up to my neck with schoolwork i complain that i dun haf time to do other leisurely things. now i haf more free time, i dunno wad to do wif it. haha:D

2007-09-05T00:59:00.000-07:00

Yayy!! Im finally blogging again. sorry for neglecting my blog for such a loooong time. heh. ok. i realised i dunno wad to blog about, cos there are juz too many things that happened. ok let's backtrack.

eyas. nothing interesting about that, juz that it was the most tiring and brain draining 2 weeks of my life. i realised i haf nvr studied that hard for exams before. ok, not that i studied VERY hard, but i actually started 2 wks before the eyas. now that's an accomplishment, cos normally i start some subjects juz the day b4 the eyas, and i get all stressed out and everything. so im quite disciplined this time round. yup. so i shud continue this good practice. haha:D then my exams.. well.. let's juz say it din go that well. that's a nice way of putting it. i juz know that i hope they burn my results slip, cos i dun really wanna see it.

after eyas. slack slack and more slack. seriously i forgot the meaning of this word during the eyas. as in like before and during the eyas, everytime i juz sit down and not do anything, i will feel super duper guilty. cos it's like im not doing anything productive and wasting precious time. so the first thing i did when i got home after the eyas was to sit down the sofa and not do anything. like stone and think about things. haha:D

teachers day(: yep, teachers are like one of the most wonderful things(people?) in the world. <3333333333 me and char and su went to anzie's hse to bake cookies for the teachers the day before. it was tiring, but it was worth it!! our cookies turned out quite nice(: then mrs cheah even smsed me to say that my cookies were delicious! haha:D then teacher's day concert was really really good. ok let's start from the top. at first me and su thought this year's concert was really boring, cos the students' programmes were really quite bad. as in not intriguing at all. then the emcees were like "this is the end of the teacher's day concert 2007." then me and su were like "what?!?! this is our last year here and the concert is like that?!?!" then suddenly the principal came up to the stage and said something like "thank you performers and organising committee for this wonderful concert. but i realised that there are some pupils missing (i think she meant some pple pon school), so now im going to do a roll call. when i call your classes please raise your hands. i will start from the sec 4s since they are the oldest." then she started to call class by class. then me and char were quite scared, cos she sounded really serious. then she called 417. we all gave her the harh?!?! look, cos there are only 16 sec 4 classes. then she called again. then suddenly 2 of my really really cute male teachers (mr tee and mr toh) ran out to the stage in some really really cute school uniform!! we were all so amused!! then a lot of my school's male teachers all came out in cute school uniforms. they acted out a play called "Boys of Laffles Academy (bla for short)". it was really really cute. i was really touched by all the teachers' efforts, cos it's supposed to be teachers' day, so we students should be the one amusing them, not the other way round. but the teachers really looked super duper cute!! like mr ng, mr toh, mr tee, mr tan, mr ow and many many more. i so regretted that i din bring my cam, they looked so cute!! and i din know that rgs teachers had such a good sense of humour. their jokes in the play were really quite funny. and even if wasnt't, looking at their expressions make you wanna laugh. yup, so the teachers totally saved the day, cos without their play i think this year's concert will be like... umm.. ya.

holidays. i think im like going out everyday leh. fri went out with char, anzie and su after tcher's day celebrations. at first thought of gg back to hws, but apparently everyone still having exams, so nobody's gg back, so i decided not to too. went to watch ratatouille!! the rat was so cute. except the plot was a bit too expected. sat went out with qh. went kbox, walked around, take neoprints. our usual routine la. haha:D i realised she like zhou ding wei too. our tastes are so the same(: sun went out with my mum to tampines mall. bought a new phone((: at first i din really wanna buy, cos i din see any nice phones. but my mum wanted me to take advantage of the promotion and she oso wanted to trade in her phone which had a value of $200. and i oso found a not bad phone. w580i. so i bought(: hehe:D mon went for philo remedial in school then went shopping with char and anzie after that. yesterday went to funan and vivo with my mummy. today went ecp with char, anzie, su and hc. i learnt how to roller skate!! hehe:D okok, still not very steady, but least can glide(: must become more steady next time. but i fell down so many times today. it was so funny. ok, i promise that i will stay home to mug math the nxt few days(: yes, i still haf math, cos i think the tchers think that we are too stressed out, so they postponed the math eya. so nxt term, i will haf math, hcl, pe, philo and options.

ok. i realised i haf been blabbering on and on. shall stop here(: will blog again soon!!

2007-07-20T03:47:00.000-07:00

Today is RHD celebrations!! haha(: today was quite fun. no lessons, juz cultural activities. then we all had to wear ethnic costumes as well. i borrowed some indian costume from os. haha, i thought it looked a bit funny on me cos it looked a little too long. anyway, everybody looked pretty today. even the tchers were all dressed up. it was super funny!! esp the concert part.. i think my favourite part was when some tchers dressed traditional costumes during the fashion show during concert!! got some of my favourite tchers, like ms tan, mr lim, ms grace, mr ow and mr ng!! they looked super cute and super funny. ms grace and ms tan looked so super duper pretty. then mr lim and ms grace was super funny, cos they were supposed to be malay couple so they had to hold hands. they looked quite awkward, then in the end mr lim only held ms grace's pinky!! haha:D

Mr Ow and Ms Tan <33

Mr Lim figuring out how to hold Ms Grace's hand :D

Dont they look so cute???

haha(: then mr lim and ms grace were also in the malay cultural appreciation room, so all took a gp photo with the handsome and pretty "bride and groom"!!

What's with hongchuan opening her legs so WIDE?!?! XP

other than that we also had food appreciation where we got to taste food from the diff races. yumyum :P we also learnt hw to tie chinese knots!!it's really quite cool and pretty(:

From left: su's, char's, mine(:

other photos wif my pretty frens(:

2007-07-12T02:32:00.000-07:00

Happy Birthday Mel & Anzie!!

yayy(: today's mel and anzie's bdae(: 16 yrs old alr!! haha:D i still hafta wait long long. here's wishing you a very very happy 16th bdae!! May you all be prettier, smarter, cuter, happier...!! stay smiley and cheery!!

other than mel and anzie's bdae, today was a typical school day. except during bio prac. haha:D so funny. we were doing some bacteria transformation thing, then at the end we were supposed to bind our agar trays together with masking tape, write our gp name and leave it till the next prac. then me anzie and char decided to be funny and write "we love mr lim" on the masking tape. then when char went to give the trays to mr lim then mr lim's expression was super funny. hahahaha:D

yayy!! harry potter opens today!! so exciting(: and the bk is coming out soon too!! harry potter craze: ready, get-set, GO!!

2007-07-04T04:03:00.001-07:00

realised i haven blogged for quite long. have been quite busy since school started, chem spa, bio test, math test.. oso got chem pt and geog pt. finally haf a bit more time today, juz finish bio test.

school is still the same, boring teachers boring lessons, funny teachers fun lessons, cute teachers enjoyable lessons. i realised all my teachers actually quite nice(: especially ms tan, mr azahar and mr lim(: ms tan is really very nice and she sincerely wants to help us improve our eng. she's oso very understanding, her lessons oso very fun and enriching. then mr azahar.. haha:D he's very funny and cute. and i dun think he tries to be funny on purpose. but the way he looks at things, says stuff, it's juz so funny:D then mr lim oso very nice, always help us in our test, let us haf things our way. but i think nowadays he a bit funny. maybe he's angry with us. he's not as relaxed and funny as last time. hmm.. shud find a chance to ask him.

on youth day went to char's hse to do geog pt. THEN I STABBED MY FINGER WITH A PENKNIFE!! ok, here's wad happened, we were making a styrofoam model then me char and su were using penknives to like cut the styrofoam. then it's quite funny, we were discussing about knives and cuts and how scary they are, bcos we juz realised hc had a really deep scar on her palm bcos when she was young she fell down and the glass bottle cut her hand very badly. then i cut and cut and cut then.. liddat lor. i was laughing and laughing, cos it was such a coincidence. but really got quite a lot of blood, it's like flowing out all of a sudden then even dripped on the floor.then char was so funny, she was so panicky. but actually i oso quite freaked out la. then about half an hour after i stabbed own finger, su oso SLASHED her own finger. her's not so serious, but both of us were so clumsy!!

look at our poor bandaged fingers):

2007-06-12T05:54:00.000-07:00

Conclusion for the day: I HATE CHEM PT!!!

wah.. today went to school early in the morn to discuss geog pt. then went subway for lunch. then went back to school to do chem pt. stayed in the lab from 130 all the way to 500 when the lab closed, we still haven finished doing. sigh.. i wonder which tcher said that we could finish it in an hour. and somemore my frens and I discussed and worked together, still keep getting stuck. it's supposed to be indiv leh.. we 7 pple, 14 bottles of reagents still not enough and cnt finish, still muz go back on thurs. can you imagine if we really law by law and do individually? i think chem tchers are so.. nvr mind. i dun rmb learning anything about the topic on the pt, then when we asked my chem tcher for help, guess wad she said? " Girls, this is your performance task. if i tell you all wad to do, then this will become MY performance task." then i was like wadeva.. if they dun teach us how they expect us to know wad to do?!? nvr mind, shall stop toking bout this depressing topic.

yayy, yesterday went mediacorp to support jj at css. i was sitting 2nd row leh!! then the camera was like right beside me... i was trying to avoid being shot by covering my face with the board, but mission failed. and i thought i was only captured on camera during the results show, bcos i saw the screen while they were filming, but today charlotte told me even performance oso can see me!! ahhh!! then my face was so super duper ultra BIG!! but it was quite fun yesterday la. everybody's singing nt bad, then see them singing live oso quite exciting. then results show oso so nervous for jj. haha:D luckily my votes nvr go to waste. SHE MADE IT TO THE NXT ROUND!!! jiayou jj!!

yayy, tmrw gg out with yu simin and qh. very long nvr see yu alr. ahaha:D so excited. shall forget about my unfinished work for now. dunno why today so tired. this morn couldnt get out of bed. then normally get out of the hse then dun feel sleepy anymore but today in the car still very lethargic. somemore haf to battle with pts for the whole day. come home really cnt take it, si4 zhi1 wu2 li4. shall go bi4 mu4 yang3 shen2 now(:

2007-06-09T07:09:00.000-07:00

today was quite good(: had a daddy-daughter day. went to watch oceans 13 with my daddy. oceans 13 rox(: brad pitt rox(: at first i wasnt very interested in this movie, cos i din watch oceans 11 and 12, so i thought i wont be able to follow. but actually i din need to watch 11 and 12 to understand 13(: the plot is good, the actors are funny, brad pitt is cool.. haha:D

today i finished the math fas and revision ws. gg to start on the prac questions in the tb. i better start working soon, bcos i was reflecting upon myself with regards to my achievements in the last 2 wks of the hols, and i realised i have achieved very little. now that i think back, i dunno how the past 2 wks were spent at all. the only thing i was proud of is that i packed up everything, including my study room, piano room, bedroom.. filed all my ws, packed all my files, planned out all my "holiday to-dos", research for geog pt. read some comics, read some robin cook, read some yan qing xiao shuo. watched lots of variety shows, a few episodes of drama, stoned, went online, learnt some guitar basics, prac piano, go out, watch 2 movies. ya. that's it. ok, i muz resolve to finish everything on my to-do list by the last weekend of the hols. i better buck up, cos i realise at the start of nxt term, i hafta finish my chem pt (which i haf no idea of how to start), study math test, finish chem journal (that's 8 entries), compile bio log (which includes all the notes from the start of the year). ya, that's only the must-dos. there's still the should-dos. nvr mind. I CAN DO IT!! the prob i will hafta overcome now is LAZINESS AND SLACKINESS. jiayou marjorie ang.

ok, shall go continue my "good work"(:

2007-06-06T07:45:00.000-07:00

feel extremely accomplished today(: i totally packed up my entire room AND study room AND all my worksheets AND all my files . Now my study room is so spick and span that i cant recognise it. haha:D okok, exaggerating. yayy!! but today i really spent the entire afternoon packing up my stuff. nw i haf no more books and worksheets lying all over the place(: three cheers for myself!!

and today, i listed in detail my holiday must-dos. i realised i onli haf 2 and a half weeks to do MANY MANY MANY things. stuff that i need to do, stuff that i want to do, stuff that i dun want to do.. some holiday.. okok, i should look at the bright side, i haf slacked enough for the past 1 and a half wks. time to start some serious work. yes. GOGOGO!!!

today oso watched the 1st ep of huan huan ai on youtube. tip-off from char. ok la, nt very exciting first ep, but it will be better i hope. he jun xiang looks better here than in dby. wang chuan yi oso. but i prefer yang cheng lin's hair in dby. haha(: anyway, hope this series will be nice. nowadays nothing much to watch. all the nice ones still in the making. like ISWAK2, e nu ah chu, ying ye 3+1.. and i actually wanna catch tian shi qing ren, but i either keep falling asleep or forget to watch!! it's been a while since i stayed up so late to watch drama. 6 hrs of the show has screened alr, i onli caught 1 hr. sigh.. then youtube oso dun haf alr. tudou oso very hard to load. XP

food for thought: i think chances are like sand. if u dun hold on to them tightly, they will flow away through the gaps of your fingers. once gone, they will nvr come back. come to think of it, i haf forgone too many opportunities in the past. hmm.. i muz learn how to recognise opportunites and nvr let them go. and i hate the feeling of regret. it's like feeling sad and frustrated, and yet can do nothing about it. ^_^

2007-05-27T22:23:00.000-07:00

holidays are here!! i totally promise myself that i will make good use of this break to catch up on my work and not while it away like the rest of my hols. ok, let me list out briefly wad i need to do this hol:
finish ALL homework.
read ALL notes.
revise ALL subjects.
sort out and upload ALL photos.
finish ALL pts.
file ALL notes and ws.
finish writing ALL journals.
prac piano INTENSIVELY.
pack up EVERYTHING in study room.
pack up EVERYTHING in bedroom.
on top of that i need my well-deserved rest. possible? sigh.. nw i will just haf to blindly believe "you3 zhi4 zhe3 shi4 jing4 cheng2" XP

spent the whole day wif qh yesterday(: had a great time at kbox, walking around and watching concert etc. then we were discussing a group study thingy. but we promise that it is nt an excuse to slack off and "pretend" to be studying. lolx:D

*there is no room for regrets in this world*

2007-05-23T08:25:00.000-07:00

I realised that it is the simplest things that gives life its greatest pleasures. A simple comment or smile could simply give me the greatest satisfaction.

just a random thought XP